是我

突然发现，很久没有post了，是时候上来兜个圈。

每一段 都是生活里的一个抒发 没什么好太认真的

话说 这一阵子 遇见了许多事

许多是 我不能说出口的

所以 越来越沉默 有一瞬间

担心自己 哑了

呵呵 可笑。

不被理解的感觉 让我好沮丧

那段时间里 试过一次 狠狠地哭了很久很久

当时我觉得 我应该把明年的quota都哭光了

也好 那明年 我就不会再掉泪了

真的就那么简单吗？

呵呵 可笑。

被人视而无睹的感觉 真的很差

站在他面前 我觉得我比任何人都逊色

我想 他倒也很希望 他看不见我

绕过我 对所有其他人好

忍受不了 别人的轻视

我宁愿 让自己也学会冷漠

看起来不在乎 至少输不了多少

我就是那么好强！

或许很幼稚吧 但这是我生活的方式

真的只要这样 就不会受伤吗？

呵呵 可笑。

而当你每一句话 都可以变成别人茶余饭后的话题时

你就会明白 什么是连微笑都是错

愿意对自己好的人很多

但会对你明嘲暗讽 你敢保证不是他们？

有些人 总会用尽每一次他们有的机会

好保证你难过

大了就别傻了 还以为就只有好人吗？

呵呵 可笑

有些人 看着我 说我有很多选择

是的 再看近一点 好吗？

我拥有的 不是要不要

而是 能不能

选择 说穿了

不过是愿不愿意妥协

僵持再久 还是得向现实低头

不是我要不要 而是我 能不能不要？

可笑的 是我。

话说，以前要看戏，总有人陪

现在... 人呢？？？！！！！ =.=

我要看mission imposible啦！！

Alvin and the Chipmunks

Arthur Christmas

还有我期待已久的 New Year Eve~~~!!

怎么有那么多套戏 我都还没看~~~！ OMG

人呢？？？？？！夭寿啦~ T^T

鱼缸

当我哭的时候，你会把衣服脱给我擦眼泪吗？♥

或许是前几天把小说拿出来翻看吧，所以看电影时，难免会比较，反而较难被感动。没有预期中的狂哭全场，还蛮失望的呢。不过，我还是有被触动的，最让我为之动容的一幕，就是当沈佳宜痛哭时，柯腾把衣服脱了给她擦眼泪，那实在很窝心。:)

电影结束后，心里是温暖的。常常因为我们都太平凡了，平凡到愿意说服自己，不配拥有美丽的爱情。我觉得这电影想要告诉所有人，美丽的爱情，不只是发生在电影情节里，它真的存在在现实生活里。这电影就是一些平凡人的爱情缩写，九把刀正是柯腾。活在这世上，我们都拥有平等的机会，去拥有幸福，并没有人比你多一点。当然，我不是沈佳宜，所以也不会奢望会遇见向柯滕一样的男孩子。但是，可以带着一个总有一天会幸福的希望离场，我的心暖暖的。

正因为还懵懂，所以才会毫无顾忌，不顾一切，毫无保留的去爱一个人。当我们越长大，这份勇气，就会越来越少。这就是为什么青春那么可贵吧？因为这或许是人生里最勇敢，过得最自我的时候了。张学友说过一句话，我到现在印象都还很深刻，拥有青春的人就好像活在鱼缸里的鱼，你以为氧气无处不在。直到有一天你发现自己在外挣扎时，才懂得，你曾经住在鱼缸里，却再也回不去。回头一看，你的青春还在吗？不管你离青春有多远，我都希望你可以为了自己而努力，别在错过后说后悔。

祝 全世界都得到幸福。

在我忙着抄笔记的时代里

太阳系还有九个行星

星座也只有十二个

流行花园是最好看的偶像剧

数理科还是用着马来文

政府也没有给我一百块 T^T

不知不觉 原来也变了那么多

青春 我是否还拥有你？

话说，柯震东实在太帅了！完完全全就正中我那一型。哎哟~相逢恨晚啦！

微雨之城

对，无声的存在。

也就是没有人知道她曾经存在在你的生命里 。

你有过这样的对象吗？不管是朋友，还是情人，还是难以断定彼此关系的那个人。

他曾经在你的生命故事里留下很美丽的篇幅，甚至是一整个章节，但除了你们两个人之外，却没有人知道他曾经存在过。

这种无声的存在是很寂寞，也很美丽的。

——微雨之城 by 藤井树

我很喜欢这本书，看完一个月了，还是常常想起书里的情节。因为虽然书里是一个又一个遗憾的故事，却不是悲剧收场。我们常常想要活得没有遗憾，可是遗憾确确实实是人生的一部分，拥有遗憾，不代表再不会得到幸福。有时候，我们太注重于完美，总想着不要留下缺口，而忽略了自己真正想要的。不管做什么选择，被放弃的那个选择，仍是个遗憾。人生得分岔口太多了， 没有两全其美的时候，我们只好选择，可以放弃的。

或许我的人生里注定带着一些遗憾，曾经的无话不说，变成了无话可说。但有了遗憾才懂得回忆的价值，不是吗？:)

而这无声的存在依然美丽。

ps: shit，又post中文了，明明说了要post英文的。 =.='''

ps2: 重看‘鱼跃在花见’搞得我一整天活在对寿司无限渴求的深渊中。T^T

ps3: 被wan jun的IQ题考倒了，结果又再被人说我苯，真想大喊，大人，冤~枉~啊~！

hmm?

I was reading my old posts and i realised that i have quite a kick-ass attitude back then. I don't even remember that i wrote

Dedicated to all son-of-the-bitch on Earth

before. *laughs* I've been too settle down for these recently. I think i wanna pick it up into my pockets again :) Sometimes you have to go extreme to give life some spice.

beer is the finest companion, laughter is the best weapon :)

星空

细数繁星闪烁 细数此生奔波 原来所有所得所获 不如一夜的星空

the less important me

Yes. I created this image.

Sometimes, i feel myself so small that nobody sees me. Sometimes i scare that i might be invisible eventually, and nobody ever notice my disappearance from the world. Sometimes i look at the mirror for so long, wondering what i am not good enough? There is always something else that is more important than me. There is always something that come first before me.

If promises were glasses, I would own so many of them, that smashed and shattered on the floor, cutting my foot every move i make. I take promises seriously, but people don't take me seriously. Just a fool, just a fool.

When will be the date, where you finally realize that i stood there so long, waiting for you to turn around and say 'hey i see you too'?

I'm just a nobody, wanting to be somebody.

(This is actually a post i wrote so long ago, old enough for me to forget when i wrote it, i dig it out from my drafts, and aha, it still fits me somehow. )

有时候 太瞧得起自己

有些人总会不经意的提醒 你的微不足道

别在意 这不过是个温馨提示

在某些人的眼里 你永远都是 次等

小聊

舒舒服服的坐在床边小角
抱着软绵绵的被单
今天是好天 :)

不想去讨论在意不在意这摊子的事
总觉得 这不是我该担心的事
托着腮 看着身边的人疑惑的表情
抛给我的一个个问题
嘴角上扬 天掉下来就当被盖吧

很多时候,
我们选择担心从不在我们可以控制范围里的事情
今天 我想当个普通人
只在乎 晚餐到底是什么?

回到槟城真好
:)

遇见

原来与某些人的相遇

是为了提醒你曾经住在你心里的另一个人

他们未必长相相似

或许 就一个动作 一个简单的句子

所有不安的感觉，就在身上乱窜

但每当看到这个朋友

自然的浮现另一个人的名字

总觉得 掉入了流沙 慢慢被吞噬

催了眠般 不管去到哪里

目光不由自主地停在他身上

我到底怎么了！

害怕却又不由自主地想要更接近他

最后到底是

希望看到更多那个人的影子

还是努力的发现他们是不同的个体

我 混淆了

没想到自以为忘了的 竟然可以如此的清晰

至少可以告诉自己

曾经懵懂的我 认真付出过

所以才会不能自己

或许这个旅程 就是想要告诉我

世界可以是很辽阔的

不是每个相似的人 都是同一种人

我相信 生命里总会遇见 更好的 :)

不如说 与某些人的相遇

是为了提醒自己 成长了多少

离开过去 又有多遥远了

就流浪吧

再一个星期，就要结束17年的求学生涯了。

英国，谢谢你为我画上一个完美的句号。

我很开心有机会见识到地球另一半的美丽

我就好像是在流浪的小王子，

再一个月，就回去寻找等待我的那朵玫瑰。:)

在这里三个月，心里有过许多感动

看过无数的美景，吃过道地的小食

体验了，我从没有过的冒险

都值得了

至于那些我留下的遗憾，

别怕，我一定会再回来弥补

然后，就要开始工作

为自己的肚子负责，不能让它挨饿

负担，挨骂，折腾，委屈。。。。

等一下

谁说，我回去受死了？

我准备好要去大人的世界流浪了！

谁吓唬我说未来是只大老虎的

那我就当个剑士去将它驯服 :)

我不懂到底未来是怎么了

但是我受够害怕了，我懒得理它了

反正是好是坏，我都得面对

我不管了啦！

直到我愿意以前，没有人可以命令我长大！

曾经我希望大家都维持不变

因为我担心，我会少了依赖

但与其这样，不如大家都走吧

我一定会用自己的脚步跟上的

只要能在未来的路上相遇，那分开又算得上什么？:)

那就流浪吧，一定会很精彩的！

Don't mess with me, or i'll make your day worst than mine :)

困窘

有时候，面对残局

我有点不知所措。

抓破脑袋，还是不懂

什么该是最好的办法

然后懊恼为何让自己

陷入这个困窘

我这不善言辞的人

碰壁了吧~

唉

有些事情，真的很怪。

伦敦，无以伦比的美丽 ♥

la la la~

有些回忆藏在旋律里

当歌曲开始响起，脑海就如电影般

一幕幕在播送。

每个人，都有一首歌吧？

曾经，我快乐地笑着，

夜半绕着山路，一起唱着。

不知不觉，我也长大了。

可以微微笑拥抱回忆，真的很好。:)

random

Kinda updating my blog very often recently. Bare with me please, the next month should be an empty month as i'll be away for 3 weeks trip :P So, alcohol tolerance went up a little, i dunno should i be happy or not. Hmm.. Time past so fast, it's only a month plus left in UK. Arghhh.... i haven't finish playing yet!!! I dont wanna go home so soon :(

By the way, mood is much better, wonder if it's because i went to ice-skating, or because i finally done some shopping yesterday :P Ice-skating is so fun, but i haven't play roller blade since standard 4, feel so scared when i first step on the slippery skating field. Haha. (i was once a pro, u know~)

=/

i need to learn how to put a smile on my face again :/

My mood been real down these few days for no reason, and i get grumpy for almost everything, my face is like the whole world owe me 100 billion.

this is probably PMS

or, mostly because i have not done any shopping for almost 3 weeks.

Argh.. why women? :/

btway, just finished watching Thailand movie 'A Little Thing Called Love'. It's a really nice movie, i think every girl experienced the same thing when they fall in love. Totally cry my ass off, my pillow is still wet :P

笑一个

今天心情很好

虽然一整天都在assignment中度过

但是我还是微笑着

我想，有时候开心不需要理由 :)

找不到方法去分享我的快乐，那就po在这里

让它定格吧~

希望所有在考试的，即将考试的

都不要给自己太大压力 好好加油！^^

右肩

摸摸右肩，辛苦你了

真对不起，总是要你牺牲

出门时常让瘦瘦的你背着重重的背包

一整天都没有休息

任性的我还为你画上大花脸，

让你从此以后面对异样眼光

而且有时候还常常让你去撞门撞墙壁 ^^'''

谢谢你，还是对我不离不弃

从不曾抱怨或者发牢骚

回家后，我带你去做spa :)

europe, scotland, london trip时，还请你多多关照哦~

lesson

This is what i learnt today. Not a clue what i'm talking about? Haha, i guessed that too. It's ok, i'll tell you :)

Which one do you see first? the musician or the girl?

In my class today, my lecturer gave us a similar picture and ask us, which one do you see? some said musician and some said the girl.

The matter of fact is, it doesn't matter which one you see first, you're correct :) There is nothing wrong of another person seeing the other side that you don't. It's just different perspective :)

Some times in life, we are too stubborn to change, believing we are the right one, and when others saying anything other, we tend to say they are wrong. Open up your mind, some times we have be brave enough to admit that, everything has more than one side of view, and we can't see all of them :)

by the way, read this from the e-newspaper today, i admire his determination in achieving his goal, never give up even when he has been betrayed by family. Even at this age, he still fight for what he want. How many of us can do that...?

亲侄出卖·女儿夺产　4亿富豪沦落

有时候，不管再难过，还是有人愿意温暖一个阴天。

加油吧~

Fussy!!

i'm hungry

in fact i'm too hungry now that my mood is so bad

i feel like punching people

and the peanut butter for breakfast today taste badly

my milk is expired

things don't work out like what i expected

ignorance is such a bitch

knocked a pole when i walk to university

the presentation is a big piece of mess

preparation is not yet done

and i have no clue on how to improve it

today is a bad day. VERY BAD DAY, it all get worst when i'm hungry. :(

Postscript:

i finally went to kitchen and have lunch with Jiaxin. She said i was sooooo fussy that even when i chew the grapes i chewed it so hard.. and the whole meal my eyebrows were tighten together. HAHAHA, burst out in laughter immediately.. ^^'''

and when she ask me which pizza to eat tonight, i answered her, whichever that looks more 欠打 and she laugh like nobody's business. What so wrong about that?! i was in a bad mood mer....! XP

喵 :3

今天忽然很想变成一只猫~ 怪

都怪今天天气太好了，整个人超级慵懒就是了

什么事都不想干，什么事都没兴趣

有时候赖在床上，滚来滚去

毫无意义地把一整天耗掉

心情也会很高兴，不是吗？:)

有没有人可以让我撒撒娇呢？meow^^

Just a little bit

来到这里，一直都没有想写东西的心情，draft了一大堆，到最后还是丢进垃圾桶。

今天，断断续续地，终于拼凑出一些文字，替自己开了一扇窗。:)

有人告诉我，在英国会学会的一件事，叫做humble

见过世界有多大，才懂得该学会谦卑

体会过别人的大量，就会为自己的肤浅而惭愧

看着陌生的厨房，妈妈的唠叨就会响在耳旁

曾经为了小事沾沾自喜，却不懂得天高地厚

我想，我们都需要经历某些事情，才懂得长大

然后开始学会

不想变雪条就得看天气预报

想要吃饭，就改学懂得饭煮多久才会熟

不想迷路，那开始学着看地图

想要出门，就胆粗粗的自己安排旅行。

而我想我学会的第一个单字，是treasure

打从第一站York到Bicester Village，就珍惜每一秒钟

那种赞叹，真的会让人心醉，

好像童话故事，都在面前上演般

不只是美丽的建筑和风景，而是发现自己懂的，很少。

不管再累，再想休息，都还是会往前走

因为，我们都不知道，下一次再来，我们会是几岁

是否还有力气去跑？

有时候走在街上，还是会不自觉的微笑

生活在一个陌生的城市，不同的风景，不同的文化，

现在的我竟然习以为然，不可思议 :)

这一个短暂的人生暑假，是一个大大的幸福

我们都需要学习，

有些人需要的是时间，有些人需要的是改变，有些人需要的，是离开。

这个离开，只有4个月，

或许能够学会的，不多。

包袱太重，旅途怎么会快乐？

所以一开始在意的事情，都在学着放开

那，我会拥有更灿烂的笑容。^^

噢，对了，

也是时候该学会如何过马路

和如何不要在上完课后，回家的路途中走错路。。

而一直执著的，也要求自己慢慢放弃。

或许有些机会是留给更值得的人吧。

牙医事件

或许是和朋友聊太多小时候看牙医的恐怖事件

昨天晚上竟然梦到

我坐在椅子上 一直有人想要拔我的牙

虽然我一直嚷着 不要不要

可是还是被拔了好多颗牙！！！

结果吓醒以后

第一件事情就是 翻开被单跑下床

冲去镜子前面照一照

还要用舌头来数一数

28颗还有两颗小小智慧牙都到齐

才松了一口气~

各位小孩子们，牙医真的是世界上最恐怖的医生

拜托没事不要找上门啊~！

Whitby

喜欢悠闲的城市

喜欢平静的海面，船只慢慢的航行

喜欢肥皂泡泡在天空中慢舞，变成数不完的小彩虹

喜欢很多很多白色的屋子

喜欢需要排队半小时才能吃到的fish and chips

喜欢一路上一直听到海鸥的叫声

喜欢看到一些奇奇怪怪的街头表演者

喜欢一间间五颜六色的小房间

喜欢那一望无际的蓝蓝海水，白白浪花

喜欢在我手上的大大个的香草雪糕

喜欢嘴里哼着 hey soul sister

我好喜欢whitby。

虽然现在有这一颗被晒伤的红鼻子~

Journey :)

Alright, here's my busy schedule for my coming 3 months in UK. Although PASBD is making my life a little tied down as i have presentation every week. My Tuesday no-class-day has become the assignment-preparation-day -.- but life can still be fun if you make time for it :)

July

1st Sheffield Welcome Party and Party at Leadmill

2nd Day trip to Whitby

3rd English Garden Party

9th Day trip to Blackpool

10th Day trip to York Designer Outlet and Lavender Farm

16th Day trip to Oxford

22th-24th Overnight trip to Liverpool and Cheshire Oaks

30th Day trip to Leeds

August

Overnight Trip to London

Day trip to Birmingham

Day trip to Stonehenge

Preparation for final assignments and Phrase Test

September

1-12th Preparation for exam

13-16th EXAMINATION

17-30th 14days Euro trip

October

2-6th 4days trip to Scotland

GOING HOME! :)

See, home ain't that faraway now, isn't it? Sometimes when i'm here i think i still have long to go before i go home, but sometimes when i look to my plans and trips, i'll think that the time i have now is not really enough to play it all. So wait for me, alright? :)

I'll study as hard as i can and play as fun as i can too. Hopefully all the plans up there will work out well. We all know life don't come twice right? So make it counts!

Happily mine :)

I've decided not to use this blog to join blogging competition, cause i found myself unable to express my true self ever since i decided to join the competition. That's why i haven't been updating for so long. Cause i'm not willing to cheat on my blog or making it commercial for the university :)

Everytime i try to write something i end up measuring my post if it's understandable, if it's attractive enough, if it's showing what an international student should show? Then eventually that post will be deleted 3:

Of course they did tell us about just be yourself and write whatever you feel. Even if i can do that i still can't overcome the problem that i cannot use chinese to write my blog if i enter the competition. Torturous betul. I'm used to use chinese in my writing already! How can i quit it just because of a netbook? :/

This is my blog so i would like to keep it MINE.

前几天买了鸡蛋，然后发现

不管三岁还是三十岁，捧着鸡蛋时都会如第一次般小心翼翼

回到家里，鸡蛋完好无缺，就像个保护了地球的大英雄，自豪不已 :)

hello!

Alright people! Just in case you didn't notice, i'm in UK right now. It's been 5 days yet i'm still excited all over everything here.

Before i begin everything, a big thank you for the farewell gifts, I love 'em all so much. Thanks for the effort for trying make me feel better about leaving alone. Except for the luring for supper, curry mee, pasar malam... -.- Thanks for wishing me good luck, thanks for all the reminder for not forgetting my stuff. Not a stuff lost yet, other than my new bought mirror, which disappeared from my bag =.=

i carry all your wishes all the way from Penang to Sheffield, they warm me on the coldest day :)

I suffered for jet lag for the first two days, it was tiring enough but i'm good as new now, YAY! Weather is getting warmer as well. Though i like the coldness and i am the only one who wear the least but too low temperature is not good! >< Last two days, there were vapor coming out of my mouth when i speak. Can you imagine? haha

And everyday is so action-packed. I don't know why but we always end up spending a day soooooooo fast. i can't believe it's already the fifth day here! :) Every night i close my eyes, i hope morning would come sooner, so that i can wake up and see all the new stuffs that come to my life :)

Oh ya, did i mentioned that i'm going to join the blogging competition organized by our university, Sheffield Hallam University (SHU)? Hah, hope i can win it! :D

stay tuned for more updates :)

i don't have a minute to waste, life is so fun to live with :)

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I wrote a long post and then i deleted it.
I realize we have too much that we're only allow to see
not speak.
But ask us, cause we're the one that know what has changed.
Don't stop us before we finish a sentence, just because it's not something you would like to hear.
We were asked to be innocent but you feed us with monster.

Sun will Shine, My Friend!

I have some friends that are feeling down and torn recently. I have a lot that i wish to tell them but I'm never someone who is good with words or expressing myself.

Sometimes when bad things happens, i wish i can give you a big hug, tell you everything is gonna be ok, instead of standing there. Sometimes i wish i can touch your mind and pull everything that bugs you out just like that, but my hands ain't no magic.

But, please do remember to look up the sun that is shinning up in the sky, cause i've sent it to warm you up :) There might be cloudy day sometimes, but never mind, i can always share my blanket with you when you're cold :)

life isn't about surviving the storms, but it's about how to dance in the rain.

Ipoh tunnel

my friend told me before that if you hold your breath when you went through the Ipoh tunnel, then you can make a wish at the end of tunnel and it will come true.

so i hold my mouth and nose so tide, cause it's an very important wish to me, i don't want any oxygen or carbon dioxide to spoil it.

we'll know if the tunnel grant my wish, next year. :)

Time made us vulnerable

时间是一支魔术棒

可以让粗糙的沙子 变成美丽的珍珠

让平平无奇的白米 酿出了香醇的好酒

让顽固的石头 变成柔软的细沙

让硬邦邦的铁树 开出了温暖的花朵

但

也可以让你一直呵护备至的可爱蝌蚪

变成丑陋不堪的蟾蜍。

再多的言语，都比不上时间的注解

有些人，久了就懂。

对于一个人的信心和失望，

都是可以累积的。

C.A.K.E.S

我的人生真是曲折....

为什么总是在不对的时间，想要吃买不到的东西？！

忽然间 发了疯地想吃secret recipe的黑森林蛋糕~~

这种毅力，有让我想要把整个蛋糕吞下去的冲动

只是 这个时候.... 到底要去哪里找蛋糕？

我已经被折磨了3个小时了

好痛苦啊~~~~~

嘴馋的时候，真的很痛苦啊....

尤其是吃不到的时候，更是难熬 T.T

don't even ask

Sometime i wish i'm stupider than i thought. I know too much truth than people thought i would. They tend to disguise it, make me a rag doll that goes by their way. Know the truth they choose to tell and behave the way they expect me to be.

but they didn't do it well. If you wanna go behind my back, hello? get some skill please. End up, i was only keeping my peace because i'm tired of poking things out. Momma tells me it's not good to pull off people's pants in the public, even when you know there's some serious shit inside.

Seriously, i'm not as dumb as you thought, okay? It's frustrating to think that you treat my like an underdeveloped kid. What's your problem man? Are you sick? Should i get you a shrink to cure your big mind that apparently you have lost control with? Don't even get it started with me.

It's not what i didn't feel, it's just what i didn't show.

Yay!

finally exam is OVER!!!

and i'm just feel like doing this

all.the.time :)

for the dramas movies novels food and fun that have been patiently waiting for me all this while, here i come!

Final Battle!

Finally, my fragile right eye recovered, thanks to the cream from pharmacy, i don't have to walk around like i'm being punched by someone anymore. *giggle*

Exam is just one week away, and i'm frowning in front of the laptop right now (if you can see me) :( this is really life and death matters to me. Biggest war ever in life, yet. So i'm sitting in living room and i have papers scattered all around the study table, couch and the floor.

I'm stuck, even on the easiest chapters. I spent whole day doing exercise for only one chapter, and got almost all questions wrong. Arrh.. Feel so miserable with the subject :( I'm so geram untill i want to bite people.. Grrr! Give me some human!! haha.. sot jor @.@'''

I love you exam, pass me please!

风车转转

从被窝里醒来，不知怎么的，就想要个风车

所以就做了几个送给自己。

咻咻！吹走坏运气，让风把好运气都转来吧！

虽然不懂这说法到底是不是真的，可是我的确收到了个好消息

从小时候腻在一起的那顽皮猴子要结婚了！真的好替他开心 :)

have a good day, everyone :)

crap

It feel so good to meet an old friend that you haven't seen for awhile. Though it's been a long time, yet he still gives you the warmest smile, calls you with nickname you used laugh so hard about it. Then when he left, all the memories come back to you, those happy time that used to spend together cross your mind like it just happened yesterday. You smiled.

Ah, it always good to get in touch with friends. Especially for me this kind of people who never like to start the conversation first even if i recognize them. Cause i am too afraid that they might not remember me. Thank you, for calling me when you saw me. I'm so happy talking with you :)

okay, apart from that, it happens something awkward today. I don't know how to explain, i don't even know if i'm being sensitive or what but something feels not right. I hope it's just me being paranoia again :/

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我的快乐好像秋天的叶子，一片一片在剥落。

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The lazy song

Today i don't feel like doin' anything, i just want to lay in my bed :)

Came across this when i trying to find some songs to listen while reading my novels. Hah, i love this version, it's smoother than the original one. Have a good time, pals.

so the current me have a lot to spend, i'll have to control my spending for the following two months, but i guess, things worth when you really like it a lot. :)

早安

离开温暖的被窝，我拿着一杯牛奶乱处走，

今天全世界在向我微笑。:)

不想去烦恼一些没有答案的问题

我没有超人的能力，所以总得承认有些困难，我没办法解决

由它去吧

管未来是什么样，管我们会怎样

今天，让一切暂停 :)

与其用力拭擦，不如让时间抚平所有错误。

p/s:

刚才逛进了一间二手书店，店名是Leo Books。

里面所有柜子，摆着满满的书，就连柜顶都放了很多书

有些被翻烂了，有些已经发黄了

但是我好喜欢。

感觉就好像一群爱书者正在向我分享每一本好看的小说。

所以现在的我要赶快看完手上的小说

好让那柜子里的书可以变成我的！:)

bye bye facebook, bye bye internet.

the ice cream junkie

i can't express how much i love ice-cream by words. It's just LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE. :)

i want ice cream so badly now that i would rob a shop for that. Okay, be frank, I want ice-cream all the time actually. Never get tired eating it :) Hey peeps, shows up at my door with ice cream in your hand, cheer me up with just this little thing, will you? :)

Every time when i was too nervous or stress out for exam, friends would drive me to 7-11 at the middle of the night, just to get some ice-cream to calm me down. Then also when i was mad, when i had a bad day, when i felt so happy, when i was crazy, when i have nothing to do, when it was too hot, when it was too cold.

i love ice-cream so much. There will never be a wrong time for it. You may not believe me, you may say i'm trying to be cute (ain't this word seems so inappropriate on me?), but the truth is, yes, no joke, i have a thing for ice-cream. and every single time i say 'i wanna eat ice cream' i really mean it. Haha

People grow and start to forget how good it feels when you always rush to eat a popsicle before it melts or how you squat at the roadside with your friends, challenging each other to be the first to finish the ice-cream. hey, never ever forget that.

so i was having some bad days where my ATM card is eaten by ATM machine, i accidentally bumped my friend's car, i drove for 6 rounds to find a parking space, i reached my hostel door and realized that i don't have keys, i filled the passport renewal form and realized that i forgot to bring my photos, bathroom drain clogged and i just choked by my own saliva.

i hereby conclude that hot weather days bring me bad luck. :/

快下雨了。

我忙着安抚那咆哮不断的窗帘。

把头探出去，灰蒙蒙的一片

又是雨季了 什么时候才会是晴天呢？

最后一个学期，最后一次机会了

有点担心。

draw no lines

Last few days i've been trying to write something so badly but nothing comes out. I wanna sort things out of my messy thought yet i don't have a clue on where to start. Today is the last day of the seem-ordinary-yet-damn-complicated-week and i kinda relief that i finally get something straight.

I was sitting there watching drama series with my mind floating, and suddenly the voice in that series just hit me a hard one. Grey's Anatomy is such a savior.

I've been setting rules in my life, telling myself what to do, and what not to. End up it's torturing me and people around me. Slowly i measure everything through the rules, but not happiness. Don't take life too seriously, else you will never get out of it alive. Why make the rules seems so important, when i can live better without it? When i die, God will tell if i did a great job in my life, rules don't. :)

You can waste your life drawing lines or you can live your life crossing them. -Grey's Anatomy

to someone, if you know i'm mentioning you,

i'm all okay, i hope you too. Something happened and it got us into a weird situation. I don't know if there is anything to be worry but if you really do, just wanna let you know that, hey, i'm all alright, seriously.

I don't know what to say actually. I don't even know if you visit my blog, so i'm just gonna write whatever. :P Maybe we gonna be awkward from now on. Maybe we gonna distance ourselves from each other. Maybe we will still be good. I don't know what is going to happen because i don't read your mind.

Just wanna let you know that, no matter in the past or now, I treat you as a friend, sincerely one of my best friends. Always welcome sms for insomnia, call for hours and date for movies. If you don't, i respect. :)

百分百感觉

同一样的事 不一样的人
可以让你有截然不同反应

许多事 不是在乎一个人做得好不好
而是他在你心中 值多少
当感觉不在
即使他远比别人出色
也无法牵动你的嘴角


有时候 感觉就是一切。

达不到的愿望

曾经想要把钢琴练好

想要背包旅行

想要去非洲

想要玩跳伞

想要看绿光

想要到 salar uyuni

想要学会冲浪

想要做无国界义工

想要发明任意门

想要看完世界上每一本名著

想要学会 日文 意大利文

想要。。。想要。。。。

曾经很执著的想要把所有愿望都达成
贪心地想要吞下全世界
总觉得这样才叫人生
然后 越来越大
发现自己 其实已经拥有了很多

那些达不到的愿望
只好待别人为我完成

可以拥有羡慕的心情 我已很快乐



feels like wanna eat ice-cream :)

烟

是不是我学会了抽烟，就能代替香烟，成为你的依赖？
我不明白，为什么有些人那么爱抽烟
那是一个不寂寞的理由吗？
也许是吧
不管在哪里，总有根烟陪伴
没有人可以如烟般，不惜一切地为自己毁灭
那是唯一一种可以用金钱买回来的绝对忠诚

当你颓废，它会为你而枯萎
当你孤单，它入侵你的身体

我喜欢烟的味道，甚至爱拥着它入睡
大概没有人可以明白，我为什么对它情有独钟吧
我想，那是因为我生命中第一个男人
从小,见到老爸的机会都很少
每一次接近老爸，都会有一股淡淡的mild seven味道
我很喜欢,它好像只为我老爸而存在

当时，有个朋友，学会了抽烟
那时候我们都还小，我觉得他抽烟的时候很好看
不懂是不是这样子，造就了他的烟瘾，改都改不掉。
但是，他从来没让我抽过，当时的我也不想吧？

曾经，有个人问我，你介意我抽烟吗？
我说，不介意
他说，嗯？你是第一个不介意我抽烟的女生，好怪！
我说，其实，我喜欢烟味。
他说，真是个怪人。
是他教我抽第一口烟的。

然后我发现，我喜欢烟味，却不喜欢抽烟。

有个朋友，即使知道我不介意烟味
也从不在我面前抽烟，我想是他习惯了吧？
是他，让我在一个晚上，抽完一包烟。
到了最后，我发现我抽再多烟，我都不会变成他。
所以，我不抽烟。

我讨厌烟味了
讨厌它在我感冒时 呼吸得更难过
讨厌它忽然的存在让我在睡梦中醒过来
讨厌它让我觉得寂寞有影子

而又是谁，在夜里点燃了寂寞？
是谁把初吻献给了烟？
是谁眷恋那指唇间的秘密?
有人说，在失意时，谁都没办法像香烟能够给他安慰
烟灰尽散时，叹口气，黯然犹在

我是烟民，但不抽烟。
拥有烦恼，却不需要黄白色慰藉
不想要在翁红的尾端 发现尼古丁麻痹得了自己
却麻痹不了问题

倒数2天

这一刻的自己
坐在客厅里 不晓得可以做些什么
连续剧的声音 不停在播送
我却连放下心来 听一听看一看的耐性都失去
原来 只是个给自己 自以为不在意考试的借口

当压力来临时 无助得可悲
我好怕 我好怕 我好怕
我真的好怕
听见垃圾车缓慢驶过
才发现时间越来越少了
读了好多 却都记不起
翻回笔记 还是一样的陌生
有种被掐着喉咙的难受

这一个天还没亮的早晨
拿起电话 却找不到可以让我按下拨电键的号码
怎么办 我该怎么办
紧张得眼泪在打转 但又觉得这样就哭很没用
所以把眼泪吞回 真是倔死了
拼命和自己对话
告诉自己 不要太紧张
然后才发现 自己和自己对话
有点白痴 呵呵



加油吧~~~~~~~~~！ （呐喊）
笑一笑，其实没什么过不了的。
以后一定会很怀念这段日子的^^
写出来，心情好得多了~
继续努力！！