汤圆·很圆很圆~

人家说，盛碗汤圆，不可以数，然后每口吃两粒。如果到最后，碗里剩下两粒，就代表明年会有情人；而如果剩下一粒，就代表明年会是单身。

结果，剩下两粒，虽然只是个迷信，但心情还是有点百感交集。因为总觉得，明年会很忙。忙考试，忙出国，忙毕业，忙搬家，忙找工，忙适应新生活，忙加班，忙得焦头烂额。明年的时间表，我其实... 没预留给情人的出现。而且，其实我目前还蛮享受单身。^^

不过，情人，如果明年真的会遇见你，我会好好等待。

oh ya, we made tongyun this year, and it's very nice to eat ( totally out of my expectation xD). Laze dough the powder with sweet potatoes and the tongyun is extremely soft, not chewy and sticky at all! But sadly, now half pot is spoiled because i didn't reheat it. kinda sad, cause i was actually expecting lots of tongyun tongshui for coming few days.. :(

Anyway, i passed my FRCI coursework. That's a big reason to celebrate as i failed the first test. Mr Kong was soooooooo strict on the first test but luckily he is much lenient on second test. Thank you a big one! :D

Guess now it's depend on me to make it an all pass this semester *wink*

ps: it's Christmas after a few days, i wonder how will it be this year?

Insomnia

i'm sorry that i never got my picture updated. So here you have it now. This is the current me. Yes, it's a sad yet adorable panda. Well, maybe not so adorable.

I've been having insomnia for more than a week.

EVERY FREAKING DAY !!!

How great~ My dark eye circles are never gonna leave me now! :C and it's really so torturous when you are so tired yet you can't fall asleep! My god! *pulls hair* Even after burning midnight oil and a disastrous test, still i will end up observing the plain white ceiling of my room in the night.

So i averagely sleep 3.5 hours a day in the past week, and i think it's going to continue like this till forever. Grrrrrrrr!!!!! You know, if there is no one who commit suicide because of this before, i just might be the first one.

i love you, sleep. i really do love you.. come back to me please! i wanna date you 8 hours a day for the rest of my life.. Don't you dump me just like that!

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有些失望，我连说出口的勇气都没有。

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Here Comes December

Finally i did something to my blog skin and layout. Kinda not used to it right now. I've been using the old layout since i started using Blogspot, which means, two years. Gosh~ i'm so dull. *laughs* Well at least, it some how proves me as a loyal person, right? right? RIGHT?

I wanted to stick with the maxima layout, but sadly i can't find any suitable background for it. Actually, this is not the ideal blog skin either, i like it to be more relaxing feel~ but again, i can't find any suitable one, i'll use this one as temp first. :p

So, December starts. I love December, it's the month you look back to all the things you did in the year, laugh, and then plan forward for next year. Plus, that's the time when Santa comes. ;) I already have a lot on my shopping list. (please see my newly updated wishlist, it's killing me). I wonder how i gonna pass this month, safely. Tsk.

But i think, December it's going to be a good month. it always does. :)

ps: i'm so bored right now. :/

幸福的预告

星期五晚上

我做了个很好很好的梦。

在这世界上活了二十一年，

我想这是我第一次 笑着从睡梦中醒过来

那个梦真实得 让我一时之间还回不过神

看着天花板 我想了很久 才发现原来我还是在我的房间里

我没有失望

即使我知道所有事情都没有发生

因为我相信有些幸福 上天会向你预告

所以 我会期待

或许这样子有点愚蠢

就不过是一个梦

但不如这么说吧

即使我懂得现实的残酷 仍然期待快乐的生活

嘘 别问我 梦见了什么

因为 说出来 就不会实现了 :)

人家都说 当你梦见一个人

是因为那个人想念你了 所以和你在梦里见面

不懂那是不是真的？

值得就好

小时候 事情都分得很清楚

妈妈说

早睡 是对的

爱喝牛奶 是对的

那弹珠丢别人的头 是错的

考试作弊 是错的

然后 我们长大了

事情开始变得不清不楚

妈妈说

是时候自己决定 对错

然而 要做的决定

却不像小时候 那么简单

一天最重要的 不再是早睡与否

可不可以看卡通 看个通宵

所以我们都问别人

我这样 对不对？

我那样 有没有错？

很多事情没有对于错

就因为大家都说这是不对的

所以就慢慢地心里开始妥协 说服自己 自己想要的是错的

然后默默的放弃 梦想

遗憾的一辈子

有多少人说

放弃稳定的工作 美好的前途

去追求那遥不可及的所谓梦想 是多么愚蠢的事

可是梦想没有标价

多么好的薪水 都换不到 不是吗？

很多事情没有办法再用简单的 对于错 来衡量

因为每件事在不一样人的眼里 有着不一样的价值

何必用自己的尺去衡量别人的梦 多宽多大

梦想吃完全世界的蛋糕 也可以很伟大

没有规则说 梦想一定要是做个有钱人

不是吗？:)

我们对于不同的东西都有着不同的价值观

所谓合理还是不合理

都看那人心里觉得值不值得而已

若他觉得不值得

哪怕是世俗认为多么珍贵的东西

在他眼里都只是一枚狗屎

而相反的

只要认为是值得的

哪怕是破铜烂铁

在他眼里都会变成钻石

那就

过自己想过的 做自己想做的

自己觉得值得就好

人生是你的 不如用自己的方式去过 :)

有许多人 可以和你相对无数个年月日

却只有你自己 和自己每一秒都不分开

当你最后一次闭上眼前 脑海里倒带的人生

也只有你看得到 所有的后悔和遗憾

那不过瘾哦

所以 管什么别人的印象 别人说什么

不如 闭上双耳 为自己勇敢一次

你会发现 不管结果如何 你是微笑的

因为 值得就好:)

just another day :)

I woke up early today

cause i mistakenly switch my table fan's speed to low last night, so it cost me a good night sleep. Damn i woke up in sweat, that really not one of my favorite way to start my day.

Well it turns out that my day isn't that bad, at least after an hour rolling on the bed, i have my first ever dim sum breakfast in Penang and i'm not late for class.

I'm supposed to be in Red Box right now at this moment, but i decided not to go few minutes before leaving house. No solid reason for that, i'm just too lazy to go out. Why should i leave my room when i have my bed so comfortably cuddling me? :)

So i'm browsing through my old blog at hostel now. It's full with the daily routine reports and things that i used to care. Haha. It's funny to see the old times especially when many things have become less important now. My old blog was so colorful. This one is just so dull, i didn't even change the header for years. Ah, it's time to do something with it, hmm..

Oh yeah, it's 6pm now. I found out that i forgot about my lunch again. Now that i realized it, my stomach starts to drum like having a mini concert inside. :/

and yes, this post is daily routine report either, i just feel like posting something. So wrote what i ever i can think of. ;)

broken

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wonders of 21st

Well, i guess i'm officially an adult now. It's weird, don't you think so? Before the clock hits 12, you were still young, and just a second after that, you can buy a house, a car, go into casino, get marry, go wherever club you like. Even get your picture on the headline for killing someone, yea, i'm 21st, don't have to mosaic my picture anymore. Hah!

I still remember what i heard from the radio few years back, being young doesn't you don't have the responsibility. You only delay it.
Suddenly, i have to be responsible for my life.

I can't understand! I still look the same, walk the same, talk the same, same old same when i was 20. How come everything goes old when i'm 21? i didn't even grow 1 inch taller or get wrinkles all over my face!

So reluctant to grow up, yet i did. Well obviously, i can't help it.




OK, i know i've been way too serious and dull. Let's make a twist.

Despite all the frustration dealing with GROW UP, i had a real good time on my birthday. I'm sorry that my friends failed to surprise me, but i'm just way too brilliant for tricks ;)

Let me tell you how you guys blow up your covers
1. Yeang Chuan personally promised to come meet me on my birthday, but he did not called me on my birthday. I know him too well, if he can't make it, sure he'll call.

2. Of course, like what Wen Khang said, Wuang Ching post it right there 'see you tonight ya' on my facebook.

3. Yeang Chuan is too big to be invisible when he came out from lift.

4. I never walk night market for twice without any purpose before!

5. Enson's car parked right at the entrance of Paradise Beach



Told ya, i'm too smart to be tricked! teehee

Yet thanks everyone for what you have done for me. I am so proud to be your friend. Thanks for trying to make this a memorable day for me. But the truth is, having you guys as my friends means more than world to me. :)



I've always not good when it comes to talking.
How i wish i can tell wan jun and yc that it touch to deepest of my heart when they drive all the way from Kampar and all other places to spare me some love.

How i wish i can tell them that i feel so paiseh to let the handsome guys prepare all the thingy at beach while i was lazying at hostel.

How i wish i can say i sayang cherry and elooi for taking me to Harvest In and night market so that everyone else can have time to prepare for the surprise.

How i wish i can tell laze that he is cute to ignore me all the while but still show up on this date. I knew he wasn't as mad as he showed but still i'm sorry if i've not been a better friend.

How i wish i can tell hory, i was so touched when i see the present, not because how much it cost, but how caring he is, to notice what i have always wanted. I feel cared and loved.

How i wish i able to say i treasure everyone just as much as they treasure me. How i wish i can thank everyone in a better way instead of just smiling.

I've been afraid to say that i'm lucky cause i scare that once i say it, luck will runaway from me.

But guess what,
god wrote it on the bottom of water glass in Harvest In, so that i can see it with my own eyes. Yes, i'm a lucky girl.


happy belated birthday, cindy.

ACCA

Everything needs money. Everything of mine needs my dad's money.

I'm starting to feel that choosing accounting is a wrong choice as way before i able to earn a cent, my dad pays a lot. To get my name in the list of ACCA student, not even an official member yet, it cost USD100 per year. And the fees continue until one day i retire from my job.

For those 5 papers that we got exempted from ACCA, we still have to pay RM1800 to the associate. WTF, i exempt 5 papers also need to pay you? i'm seriously fugging pissed by that. I know mom and dad sure will be mad if i say i don't want the ACCA anymore. My dad even want me to be a CPA, but seriously, i don't see it worthing anymore. It's like my dad paying for my future salaries.

Now, new semester started, college tuition fees RM1600, excluding all the textbooks that i'm going to need to buy. Which is RM190 as i know for two subjects, the other two, still haven't been told yet. though he didn't say a thing, I feel so guilty to tell him all the money that i need.

i swear, i will be an ACCA, to earn back all the money you sucked from my dad.

random

People, care for a little updates? ;)

it's holiday and obviously, i'm don't get to stick to net from day to night like i used to be, but still, i'm gonna get my house streamyx done soon. So, in the meantime, i'm just gonna live a healthy life.

1. Since i went home, i've not been given the chance to feel the word 'hungry'. My mom stuff me food every 2 hours!

2. i smell like milk. If you are any way near me then you will smell milk from me. Those who hate milk must hate to be near to me.

3. Found many foods and snacks that i havent eat before! OMG! super nice!

4. Obsessed with 'A Fistful of Distance' recently. I actually finished it within two days :)

5. These two weeks of holidays gonna be...... . ..  . .. . .. hehe!

6. Without my banana acc me to sleep, i'm forced to eat banana so that i wont miss it too much. :D

7. I said i wanna go jogging, i never did.



this song speaks me today! ^^
check out the original MV  it's too bad that the ori video was disabled to be embedded, it's really cute! :)

你是什么书？

对于某些人，这世界是本悬疑小说，

到处东充满了尔虞我诈，所有事都需要防备别人，预防奸计得逞

有些人的人生，像部爱情小说，

高潮迭起的剧情，说不完的浪漫情节，可惜的是，他的世界里真正的主角，是爱情，不是自己。

有些人，就像部琼瑶悲情小说

什么事都悲哀，所有事都很洒狗血，翻个两三页，就出现一幕幕主角哭个不停的场景，富有同情心的人，会陪你一起哭。厌了的人，就会把书盖起来，以后都不看。

有些人，就像部励志小说

不管你要不要，一翻开，就噼里啪啦讲个不停，做人要强！！其实他也是可爱又固执的一本书

有些人过得像本字典，

拥有一大堆学问，却枯燥乏味，一板一眼。懂得拼命查证和研考，却不懂得用对的方法来分享。所以只有在考试时期，电话才会一直响。

有些人就像本参考书

他做什么事，都值得你参考。问题只是在于，这本书是个A级还是F级。找错了参考的对象，即使你你参考得透彻，结果也只会是个败类。

有些人，是份八卦杂志，

把自己的人生建立于别人的私生活上，观察别人，是他的生活目标。若有天这世界没了八卦，他会没办法活下去。

有些人过得像本漫画
嘻嘻哈哈，日子再难也总可以在欢笑声里度过。

有些人，是份马经

害人不浅，却让很多人着迷，抓着一份草纸当是宝，唉，害人不浅哟~

有些人，是本自传
很明显的，他的人生，只有自己。

有些人，是本历史记载小说
只爱回首过去，却忘了看看未来。过去固然美，但你又怎么知道，未来不值得你期待呢？

当然，这世界有数不尽的书，也有数不尽的人，他其实没有对于错，只是在于，看书的人是由什么观点出发。我可以把每本书变得形同废纸，自然的也有个观点可以把每本书变成生命里不可或缺的天书。
同一本书，握在不同人的手里，会变成不一样的世界；正如同一个人，但在不同人的眼里，会有不一样的看法和价值。没有对于错，只是在于你如何看待他，不是吗？

我是一本什么书？
应该是本谜语书吧？一天没翻到最后一页，都别太确定，你猜想中的就是那个真正的我。
我其实也很好奇，答案是什么，因为我也不懂最后一页到底在哪里。





p/s: 话说我看了报纸报道，无意中看到彩票积宝已经是1850万了！天杀的，等下就去买一张！要知道，考试大难不死，积宝必有后福！xD

livin' like a pull & bear

i still can smell keropok from my fingertips. A dinner with LAZE, and i thought a lot. :DDD

i guess everyone been through this stage, where you realize that you don't feel the same for the fun things you used to do. Maybe it's the exam that got me brain-washed. i don't know what's happening to my silly brain actually.

i didn't try to change myself or whatever, it just happened that i start to think weirdly.
just feeling so worn out for everything that i do, everything that i used to talk.
till some point, i ran out of expression when i deal with people that trying to care me.
Those who tries the harder to come near, i'll move one more step away.

It becomes a crime to have some privacy. Feeling so suffocate that i have to share my e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g. Like it's a sin to say no. I don't even own the right to have a secret?
Why i have to be responsible, for everything that i wasn't supposed to be?
The pressure to force me to open up, to share my privacy, to understand my every part, to make me agree with every point they say.
This is just not the care that i need. To expose every single cell of oneself to another one, that's too much to bear.

Can i talk, only when i want? Can i talk, only to people i choose? Can i reject, when i really don't want to do something? Can i don't go to places, where it is just a ritual to do so? Can i only go out, when i'm ready? Can i don't compromise?

I just want a dinner, with few bad jokes. I just want a movie, where movie is really the main point of the outing, i just want to go out with smiles. There's just too few on the earth, who know the real meaning of 'just talk when you feel like talking'.

two new cups!

bought two cute cup yesterday. i have no idea why i bought it, as i already have a cup, a glass, a mug and a water bottle in my hostel. Well, the big wide smiles do really have some effect on me. :) I guess it just brighten up my day.

things just tend to slip away silently when you didn't notice it. So does my second blog. :)
Hugs and kisses.

坏习惯

我承认 有时候太好强
明知道不可能的事情 也强迫自己

不是不懂 最后的结果
只是 若要我还没尝试 就弃械投降 我做不到
宁愿尽了最大的努力
然后被人狠狠掴一巴 哭得似个弃妇

也不愿意有那小小的机会 让我埋怨自己
后悔着，若当初我再坚持一些 结果是否会不同？

我也觉得这样活着 很累

只是 我改不了了

THINK POSITIVE!

Okay, i know i'm not supposed to be blogging but i don't know what should i do other than knocking the buttons on my keyboard. Exam is just few days away, i still not in the mood of study. OH GOD! this is totally not good! I'm so scare to fail any subject yet i'm so relax over here.. :(

and SFM is totally disaster, i don't know anything about it. Argh! Feel so pek cek when i think of it every time. The syllabus is so much. :(

Urgh! no more laptop! no more online! I wanna grad on time. I don't want resit, i dont wanna waste anytime of my life. I have too much to accomplish on my list!

*cherry is nagging me that if i still blogging here, i will not able to answer in the exam.. T.T*

exam, i love you, pass me puhleeeease!!!!

倾诉

。
到现在才了解
放不下的，不是自己

而是一些总爱看热闹的人。
当你向前看，大家却巴不得你往回走，好让你成就大家口里的 ‘我认为...’


我

欢迎你，自以为幽默。

鼓励你，不尊重我的过去。

呼吁你，把悲情当玩笑。

更谢谢你，作为我的朋友，却不顾我的感受。

因为理所当然似的，

不管说了些什么，我绝不可稍有不开心。

就让那过去式的爱情，喧闹而孤独地 活在他们的嘴巴里。:)

君子坦荡荡 我娱乐你们

反正我 很大方

就任你 揭我伤疤

Eggs

Okay, i just realized that EGGS are actually expensive! Maybe not, cause i seldom noticed the price of egg, well, to be exact, i seldom buy eggs. So, it might be out of my expectation, a little. The point is, just now i went to mini market to buy some groceries, i brought RM8 and i expected it to be enough. Too bad, eggs are more expensive than what i thought it would be, so, i was forced to g.o. b.a.c.k. u.p to take extra money a.n.d. g.o. d.o.w.n. to pay for the stupid eggs which i stupidly saja wanna buy a.n.d. t.h.e.n. g.o. b.a.c.k. u.p. a.g.a.i.n.

and fyi, i was so lazy to go down at first, but i have no more food at hostel that i was FORCED to go down and the eggs made me walk twice.

so, eggs are really stupid. and it make me looks stupid, so i hate eggs right now. :(
(okay, i was just fooling, i still love eggs)

六十年代的收藏品

最近看到8tv常播的广告

你最珍藏的是五十年代的一张黑胶唱片？还是六十年代的一张明星日历？八度空间全面搜寻50到70年代的珍藏品, 欢迎把您的珍藏品上载至八度空间Facebook，最多回响的收藏品，将可在八度空间亮相，还可获得现金300令吉的奖励!

每次看到这个广告后，我就会自然地望望家里四周，看有什么珍藏，当然，我找不到。我家也算是半个现代家庭，大概90年以前的东西，只有照片吧？

然后最后我想想，终于发现我有个属于六十年代的珍藏。这个珍藏，是我最自豪的。她是我妈妈。

她是个厨师，会做一桌我爱吃的菜，等我回家。

她是个裁缝，会为我改衣服，让每一件都看起来更漂亮。

她是个歌手，有很好的歌声，早上醒来，有时候会听到她唱卡拉OK。

她是个技工，修水喉，电话坏，她都可以一手包办。

她是个灯塔，半夜回家，她都会亮着灯，替我们开门。

她是个魔术师，不管我说什么不见了，最后都会出现在她手上。

她是个小叮当，我说要什么，那东西就会出现。

她常常提醒我，不要忘了这个，不要忘了那个，可是自己却常常忘了关煤气。

她爱剪报纸，把食谱都剪下来，然后问我们，明天我做这个给你试试好不好？

她有一头短发，虽然我还是觉得她的长发很好看。

她留过很多眼泪，超过一半是因为老爸，姐姐和我。

每次明知道是自己的错，我却拉不下脸来说道歉。

每次帮妈妈染头发，我都很想问，为什么你的白发长得越来越快了。

每次买给妈妈的面膜，我多很想问，为什么你不保养自己？

然后我发现，我的妈妈是个很漂亮的女人，再多皱纹和白发都掩盖不了她的美。

经营一个家不容易，我家更是难上加难。

姐姐读书压力时，你说你怕她没成就，但更怕没了她。

有时候看到她流泪，我不明白为什么。

有时候看到她生气，我不懂她介意些什么

有时候吵架，也不知道为了些什么。

但哪个家不需要包容？常常以为自己受了很多委屈，但看回头，发现一路以来，受了最多委屈的人，是她；包容最多的人，也是她。

我很想给你更好的生活，却发现自己没有能力。我所拥有的奢侈，都不是我的。

我答应会让你有好日子过，我一定会做到。请你再等我一下下，到我成为一个可以养家的孩子。我要用我的薪水带你去旅行，你挨过的苦，我一一为你填补。

这个珍藏，不需要带去8tv亮相，更不稀罕那300令吉的奖励，因为她是无价。

我要你的爱

我  我要  我要你  我要你的  我要你的爱
你為什么不走过來？ 
我  我要  我要你  我要你的  我要你的爱
你為什么不说出來？
Listen to your mama and you never will regret it
And if anybody wonders
You can tell them that I said it
The only thing I know is that I never can forget you
I've been longing for you baby
Ever since the day I met you
I got you where I want you I'm never gonna  let
you get away from me
Hear what I tell you
I'm a girl for you and so you better start to face it
If you ever lose my love you know you never can replace it
I think it's time for you to start to give me
some loving carring a torch for you that's hotter than an oven
It's time for you to give a little turtle dove 
Baby hold me tight
Then do what I tell you
我  我要  我要你  我要你的  我要你的爱
你為什么不走过來？ 
我  我要  我要你  我要你的  我要你的爱
你為什么不过出來？
我爱你  我爱你

我  我要  我要你  我要你说  只要說声爱

你為什么不  為什么不  為什么不肯說爱

午后

喝着维他精，我告诉自己，

其实我是幸福的。

再难也别怕，会安然度过的。

一定会的。

只是过了期的幸福，又怎能抚平我的不安？

唉

我会很好的，真的是这样的吗？

sick jor wor

i'm sick because of my greediness. Especially sore throat is killing me. Ate too much good stuff at hometown. 3 packets of milo powder, dozen of pisang goreng, starbuck's chocolate cream chip, and snacks. Argh~ that's why everybody hates weekday. Cause after you enjoy your weekend you will kena the impact when weekday starts :(

Samo lost Jingle, i don't know why it can squeeze out from the cage! I searched the whole house but only found Snowie, Jingle remain untraced. :'( Damn, now i can even lost hamster, what else i can't lose? Tell me~ Tell me!

Went to buy vitamin C at pharmacy after class just now. What for buying Vita C? for stronger antibody and so that i can become this!! hahahahahaha! RESCUE THE EARTH!!

but the shopkeeper ARM CHIO when i say i want candy type! How can he laugh me~ He is the one who gave me 3 choice.. pure-vitamin, dissolve in water, candy type... i'm not even officially 21 yet, suppose i still have the right to choose candy type wert~ T^T
and.. why the vitamin C got a bit salty geh~ still, it's better compare to real medicine :D

这是一个悠长假期

那是好比两个人在列车上，
大家都希望可以到达写着幸福的站牌。

只是中途，争吵，误解，无奈，疲惫
她选择提早下车了。
火车依然在走着，不同的是，
它在往回忆，倒后行驶。

还没下车的人，活在过去的甜蜜里。

所有的事，无时无刻在车窗外重复着，提醒你，

他们每一次的关心，都让你的嘴角上扬
每一次每一次，提醒自己，不要再爱了
不要再沦陷了，不要再抱任何希望了
可是，每天晚上，闭上眼睛，看到的，
是所有曾经的快乐

看着回忆一幕幕掠过，颓废得想让自己消失在空气里

懊恼着
为什么在她选择离开时，你没有用力拉着她
逃避着
所有彼此说好要一起做的事，仿佛她一定会回来，把所有诺言兑现
希望着
她可以用同一种眼神，再看你一次，就好像她的眼里只有你存在
想象着
若有天不期而遇， 从相遇到告别，那会是怎样的情景

每个人都有舍不得的时候，
或许是没了解过被迫放弃的挣扎，
所以不懂得，自己其实没想象中的潇洒。

然后，发现没了她，你便失去了自己
抿着双唇，因为明白这时候说什么，都没了意义
当初心甘情愿地离开，就没资格说

我还依赖


其实
选择用不一样的方式去爱着一个人，那是执著。
没有对与错，没有聪明与愚蠢，也没有好与坏。
很多事，没办法在天秤上衡量。
并不是你离不开，就是个坏孩子。
认真爱过，就对得起自己了，
或许看回去，我们觉得我们可以做得更好
可是，用真心对待，那就是最好的了
不是吗
有种爱不是努力付出，而是用力割舍
你知道吗？

哪天在街上遇见了，记得要勇敢地祝福，
即使微微刺痛，你也希望看到她幸福的微笑。

嘿，坐在车上的人，在列车停下以前，这将会是个漫长的旅程
终点是 释怀

一路上，我这一支救伤啦啦队会在每个休息站等你
陪你逛尽天涯海角，高声呐喊，大吐苦水:)

bare foot

i can't remember the last time i went to beach and really had a good time. 

No parties, no games, no hiding expression, no trying to make a 'high' at a gathering..

Just talking, just lying, just drinking, just enjoying.

how does it feels when you touch the sand with bare foot?

I miss the beach, with you guys. 

when will it comes back?

will it even come back?

快乐

.

对于我拥有的平淡，一向来很满足。


因为懒惰争闹，所以选择  体谅 & 原谅  。


然后才发现其实这样生活，



更值得微笑。

最近

我过得很好 :)

他给我的五份感触

一个在酒吧的晚上，让我遇见了五个让我有着感触的人。来自不同地方，五个不关联的人，曾出现在我生命里不一样的时间里，可是如今却在同一个夜晚，同一个地点里出现。:)

之一，
或许是我一直都认定，我们不会再见面
所以你叫着我的时候，我才会如此的惊讶。
你总是在不经意的时候出现，勾起我的回忆
还是那一个笑脸，
但厚厚的陌生，像鸿沟一样把我们隔开。
也对的，有着天壤地别的生活圈子的我们，
可以是彼此生命里的一个小小角色，我已觉得欣慰
彼此都微笑着，此刻，言语显得多余。
我们都过得很好，那就好了。

曾经你说，不管别人给于什么评价，最重要是你怎么看待。
到这一刻，我都记得。

之二，
看着那背影掠过我眼前，我就认出你了。
那么多年的朋友，完全不容许我有出错的机会。
还没从悲伤里走出来吗？
别让它淹没了你，懂不懂？
都喝得站不稳了，还跟我嚷着要来个抱抱。
你的朋友说，他还是那么的伤心。
看着你醉得傻傻的，我却笑不出来。
这种伤痛，总有复原的一天，你要耐心的等待。
何必天天借酒消愁呢？

要学会为自己微笑。

之三，
有些事情的发生，是冥冥中有着安排的。
所以，已经三年多没见面的朋友，
竟然也让我在你离职前一天，
遇上了。
没想到你和我一样，都还记得对方。
你还是那么洒脱，
告诉我，
接了一份新的工作，明天就会去新加坡。
所以下次我们再见面，我们就去吃海南鸡饭。
那三年多的空白仿佛在我们谈话间都不见了
还是那么的快乐。

之四，
你说在吉隆坡生存，真的好压力。
即使你不向别人抢，他们还是会跟你争
看着你伤心，我满满的不舍。
我舍不得，看着我的好朋友那么难过，却帮不上忙。
你让我发现，
原来我们都真的在长大了
要背负的责任越来越多，
要面对的事情也越来越不在自己掌控之中。
心里要照顾的人越来越多，可以留给自己的却也越来越少。
担心着谁不戒烟，谁又为了别人丢了自己。

很多时候，即使我们愿意尽自己的本分
还是阻挡不了排山倒海的艰辛。

别灰心，我当你的拉拉队！

之五
你的开朗，感染了我。
我的灰色变成了彩虹。
有很多事情，真的不需要太在意。
我也不明白，为什么大家对我有这种想法，
但是从负面到正面，至少大家对我都很关心，不是吗？
不去解释些什么，我知足的。

Cameron Highland

Went to Cameron on the public holiday. It was fun, relaxing and enjoyable. :) I love that place a lot.

Went to Ipoh McD on the way, watch Uruguay vs. Netherlands. Ming Loong won two oranges for betting Netherlands. Vynn lose strawberry pancake for betting Uruguay. Lol. 

Then as usual, i fell asleep after eating then when i was in half conscious, i heard laze say our car no petrol ad! But it was 6am, all petrol stations were closed. So we off engine and sleep in the car for one or two hour then continue the trip.

Went to Bee Garden. It was pretty, yet scary! the buzzy sound was everywhere! Phobia since i kena stung but still i walked into the garden! How brave~

BOH Tea Centre, i like the place alot! too bad it rained! :( the view is awesome! 

my passion fruit tea and scone. it's especially nice with the strawberry jam~ yummy~

cactus farm. i'm not a fan of cactus and it's even more ugly when it grow bigger and bigger. ew~

friend said i sleep from the start till the end of journey. haha. just when in the car ok~ :) too bad we don't get the chance to eat strawberry pancake! i saw it from chiachyi's blog, it look so delicious!

Finally, june passed. So glad for it. Now it's like an early christmas for me with tight budget. haha! Spent too much on shopping. :P Now everything bad must be gone! I'm gonna enjoy my everything-good-life~ Cause you tasted the bitter, so you know the precious of sweetness.

C'est la vie ♥

Twilight Saga: Eclipse

Guess this must be the hottest topic in town other than world cup. But i'm not going to watch it. Too bad for me, ain't it? Well even myself feel so, losing chance to watch a movie that i might like. But i'm really so sick of it.

When the first movie on show, i was extremely excited to go for it. But forgot for what reason, i was not able to watch it in the first week. Then when i was finally going to watch, friends start telling me,

gosh, i wish Edward Cullen was my boyfriend.
OMG, Cullen is so handsome!
Why i'm not Bella?!!
Edward Cullen is so romantic, i wish he loves me
Why you still haven't watch it? fast fast go, then u will fall for Edward Cullen too!

I vowed that I heard each of those sentences for at least 3 times. Then my desire for that movie turned down immediately. There might be tons of nonsense reasons why i watch a movie, the clothes are nice, the set is nice, i like the actor, i like the action, i like the gadget, i like the romance, i like the plot, i like the title but not because i wanna fall in love with the character. That's not a movie for. It's like the movie focus on the project how good Edward was rather than the story. A good movie don't do that!

If you wanna tell me, that's the whole story about, Edward Cullen! then bingo, i hate this kinda movie cause the title is wrong! the movie title should be Edward Cullen instead of Twilight!!!

i don't mind to be the odd one, yea, the only person who hates Edward Cullen.

Sex & the City 2

A highway-speed-like week passed, finally! Thank god for that. Felicia was back on the weekend and we went to Gurney though i was extremely tired after presentation.. Had great time with her and bunch of friends. She reminds me of what i used to be. She made me to go back to who i was too. That's why i always love her. Ya, she bitch, that's Felicia. :)

Went to watch 'Sex and the City 2'. Friends laughing about Samantha shouting 'I HAVE SEX!' in the middle of groups of Arabian man. It surprised me, cause though it's really funny, but, what i remember most was not that. and they wonder why i cry. Why not cry? it's so touching! I can't understand. :)

I love the movie a lot. Like i still lost myself in the movie after coming out from the theater. I still feel like crying when friends tell me about the Samantha jokes. Seriously i can definitely cry a hard one if i didn't hold. Like my soul bust out of the car, and i watch myself away with Enson's car, the scenes keep on flash back in my mind.

I was home finally, talking about the movie with my friend in msn. We love the scene when Gaurau said, 'Time doesn't matter. But every moment we spend, it's beautiful.' It touched me to the deepest of my heart and my tears dropped just like that. Gaurau and his wife must love each other so much, then only he can say it without any hesitation. 

Carrie and Big kept fighting over the couch. She said she need sparkles while Big is starting to get easy with everything. Then she cried when she call Big, telling him about the kiss between Aiden and her. Like a child who break a vase, don't know what to do other than wait for punishment. Friend said she thinks too much, i think he mean this scene. But i don't think so. Cause she love Big, that why she felt guilty on what she did. Cause she is being responsible to the one she love. Like Carrie said, ' i don't want to kept secret to each other' 

Only when everything falls apart she wonder why she's been complaining about everything. How Big put his feet on the couch. How Big don't like to go for the release. How Big love to stuck in the couch. How Big paying more attention to the tv than her. While the best thing in life is to watch black & white movie with the love one, being simple. She had it but she complaint about it. Isn't it good to be simple?

I vow that i will never kiss another man other than my husband. I cried for that too. :)

Those Arabian women, who were forbid to show their beauty to the world. They still want to be themselves under the black veil. The veil can cover their looks, their appearance, but it can never hide who they really are. True beauty shines from under, and it glows forever. 

This movie says a lot about many different kinds of women. I really love it.

insanity of week 7

i think i'm about to go insane. This week is totally chaos for me.

Within 3days, i have to complete an assignment, 2 presentations, 1 test.

I asked myself should i give up on the test when i was studying just now.

Cause i'm really so exhausted the whole day today. 

2 presentations related to a 18-page-long case. Oh fuck!

We only have the time to start reading the case 3 hours before the presentation today

Then come out with 3 pages long answer.
Actually we all fell asleep one by one during discussion, too tired!

Still got a presentation on Thursday. Crashing with my test.

and no time to even read the question yet!

the test, i'm so not prepared for it. 

I keep falling asleep while i do revision just now. 

Though i took an hour nap just now but still so tiring.

Then stupid net that cannot use at the most important moment!

Luckily i brought my laptop to do assignment while watching semi final last night then i able to finish up to half.

Borrowed broadband from JiaXin today and finish up the whole assignment part. 

Wasted a day! i supposed to finish it last night and start studying for test since after class at 5pm just now!

Sometimes you're tested on how much you can give before you take.

Tough up! Everything's gonna be fine. I don't get knock down so easily :)
Tomorrow is a new day!

(Urgh, hate to encourage myself when i'm actually very discouraged now)

Lulian~

today, it's the happiest day since 2010. :)

i ate durian and i really enjoy laughing with my friends. It was so fun together! We played too much until we got complained by other lots. Uncle Mok came up to my house to warn us. But he is very kind lar. haha

everyone was laughing, like we couldn't even stop it. I love to see 'em smile, from the bottom of hearts. :)
now i stil burp with durian smell in my mouth aha!

Laze: this durian sure very nice!
Elooi: how you see de? i cannot tell which one is nicer!
Laze: u stupid, cuz i ate then i noe la!

WenBin: yii~ Lao Hong wor~
Cindy: where got? he came?
WenBin: cuz Lulian Lao ma~
Cindy: =.=''' tomorrow i buy angmotan. Angmotan Chan~

hahaha!

the war between two childish 21-to-be guys. 

Tomorrow we gonna cook again! :) it's so late now after waiting for the video to upload on Facebook. I'm going to sleep~ nite nite, world.

june, not good.

June been torturing, i'm broke, seriously, pathetically broke.

And finally i got my health report on Friday.

It's been waiting for me in the clinic for two weeks. i kena 3 injections for Hep B. Shit! NEEDLES! Plus, i nearly left my ic in the clinic when i left, plus, i'm still using the same road to go Sri Wang every time and use different roads to reach home EVERYTIME. What's wrong with Sri Wang?! Then i got myself lost after getting out from Church Street. That's not good.

PLUS i was informed that i have to take another 3 injections if my Hep B immune still don't grow after the first 3 injections. -.-'''

Then the doctor gave me medicine for bacteria and antibody. I let Cherry and Wenbin taste it a little, and i laugh dead for their expression. xD

it's EXTREMELY SOUR! 

gosh! i never taste a medicine that is soooooo sour! it's like the 10times of hi-sour candy.
but still it's nice to get home. :)

lovely chendol ice-cream that waited me in fridge before i reach home. and i got stuffing mang zhang kueh~ putu mayong as my breakfast, fruit after meal that sis peeled skin for me! :) and one of my favorite

cow's ear biscuit! :D i'm very picky on that, not all people know how to make nice cow's ear, you know..

then a hepi burday to Vincent the milk king. I run back to Penang on Saturday night then go home again. :)

it's Largy, i try to peek her through the toilet window. aha! and what a sexy game.

An attribute to my house new mop, who scare the hell out of me when i finish taking bath. It was hang about the same height like me. I turned around and i thought it was a pink hair ghost standing behind me. I screamed very loud. Shitty~

no net!

.

less online, more on life.

kinda bored with the life that

'i will die if the world's without internet'

i only like to open online shopping sites, blogspot, pps. Msn is more on asking stuff only. Facebook? Actually my main purpose to log in everyday is just to unlock 'The Mood Weather Report'. Starting to wonder, why i can sit from day till night just to online last time? =.='''

so i'm decided for a change, that is, to stuck myself in library. :) Well, that's a joke.

Just that my friends are all around me, or can reach me by a call. I don't really need net that much, you know. Besides, i found many stuff that i like to do other than sticking my butt in front of my laptop table without a purpose. For one of the examples that you might not believe is, do homework and read my notes. :) Still, i love hanging out with friends.

and recently i'm quite interested to all the stories of great persons. But instead of reading their stories on net, i prefer holding it on my hand. Where can i find it, without needing to pay for it? aha xD




Oh ya! Last night i've got 4 bak zhangS delivered right to my face! Aw.. so hang fuk nia~ Even my mum didn't treat me so good to deliver bak zhang for me.

and i actually need two GUYs to teach me how to steam bak zhang without using a 'kuali'. Sigh.

by the way, guess i won't be coming back till next Tuesday. All uni friends are back to hometown for holiday, i'm going back for gathering, and i gonna SCREW them for the stupid prank! >:(

beware of the next cindy,

i just might surprise you with my change

:(

昨晚左胸口又再很痛了。

每一口呼吸都在牵扯着我所有的神经。

可是越疼，反而越贪婪。

更用力的想要大口吸气。

结果越来越痛，最后只能缩在椅子上，

用多拉A梦来分散注意力。

看了医生却查不出结果

这种感觉真的很无奈。

是不是真的是迟睡的问题？

T.T

我快要飙泪了啦！

在这样下去我的葬礼会有‘英年早逝，壮志未酬 ’& etc.

OK

sometimes

it's ok to be weak,
it's ok to be dependent
it's ok to cry
it's ok to feel fear
it's ok to be forgetful

cause i know, there's always a shoulder for me to lean on.

sometimes

it's ok to be stubborn
it's ok to be inconsiderate
it's ok to be nuts
it's ok to be overconfident
it's ok to be stupig
it's ok to be over the edge
it's ok to daydream

cause i know, there's always a hand to pull me back.

sometimes

it's ok to laugh
it's ok to tease
it's ok to love
it's ok to do noob stuff
it's ok to complain everything

cause i know, there's always someone to share everything.

so it's ok to be me, in front of you. :)

cooking!

Okay, a disastrous week, compensated by a dinner. How disastrous? Let's put it this way, i was in a car then i got flung out of car, hit a Storm, then hit my own car then fell to the road, that kind of disastrous! F! So, I was taking nap on my hostel's sofa and Enson woke me with a knock on my door. I can't sleep back, so i decided to check out what was he doing.

omg~ the guys are cooking. Real version of 型男大主厨. :D So they were busy shouting each other in the kitchen,



   Dog what you wanna do with the carrot la!
                                                                     Wei r, did you realise you didn't put the prawns?!
                             where are the chillies!
                                               no no no! too much ad!!
                                                                   where got! ngam ngam ho la~
          the onion makes me cry~~ T.T
                                        u stupid! don't know how to cut the onion correctly la



then, i was only lying on the sofa with me pillow in my hug and watching them. Largy woke up and joined me to watch them. They were cutting things, boiling this and that, testing taste, and macam macam.

They played and spilled the oil, on the floor, and the wall. =.='''

 

our cook for the night.

it dont look very attractive on pics but it actually taste quite good. I like the balsam pear and sardin the most. Still feeling reluctant to accept corn as part of vege.. so the egg i ate real few~ but it's nice. :) Oooh~ they had the soup served too! but no pics~ xD

 Taadaa~ Laze even fill our rice! So i really only sit there and wait for food. :) Bo huat.. i don't know how to cook.

all finished~ actually i want to fill rice again, but sadly, no more rice~ T.T the balsam pear really nice lar~~

me and elooi then serve as the cleaning force, wash all dishes. haha! I will learn to cook.... someday later! Hmph! Thanks for the dinner after all.



by the way, went to Mansion 69 on Wednesday. It was real fun and real embarrassed as well. I have mixed feeling for the last two buckets of heneiken! Cause it was enjoyable but also the reason for all my shame~ Sigh