hi~ 2010

Hey, it's the last day of 2009, it's gonna be a brand new year after 12am. Well, actually i feel after 12am is just nothing other than supper time. *laughs*

talk about 2009. Everyone been talking bout it. What have i done? Biggest accomplishment, GRADUATED! i have more new friends in my life. :) i saw over 80 shooting stars in one night. I bang a pillar in subaidah. I'm lazier. I stick my butt in front of lappie even more. My outings even more. Actually too much things happened in 2009, i found myself remember nothing when i try to think it back. Everytime we did something and we would say i will remember this all my life, ends up, you remember nothing. Maybe it's because i'm just awake from bed or my weak memory storage? *laughs*

Well at least in this year, i learn a lot. I learn that friends are your only depend when you're away from home. Actually always think so long ago. :) No one worth you fighting with your family, no one ever worth, at least until now.

One thing that i learn it through the hard way is,

people always leave.

I heart this quote from Peyton Sawyer in One Tree Hill. i wrote it on my shoes. So that i can remember it, for every step i take. Don't expect anyone to stay, as everyone has his/her own life to lead. There's no reason for you to disturb other's life for your own frail.

In our lives, we watch people leaving us. Friends, family, lovers, classmates, they leave, one by one. It sounds sad isn't it, that's the ugly truth of life. This year, many people left. Those that we used to hang out like almost every second for everyday, they left. They gone to study in other places. The one who used to joke with me, he gone, to a better place. Well my dad, i should say i'm already used to it since like i was 3? I will not lie, there is also someone who walk into my heart and walk right out.

Well what can i say? Don't expect anyone to stay. I might be pestimistic but this is the thing people should learn. No matter how much i want my friends to stay, i still cant hold them forever. No matter how much i wish those that in heaven come back alive, it still will not happen. Life goes on. I believe that one can survive, no matter what happens. That's what human most gifted talent, surviving. Of course in my case, it's not so serious, but what i'm trying to say here is, i can live. Just tough up, and you will be fine.

Well, thinking back, i'm leaving too, from my classmates, my friends, my family. I leaving for my future. Do they miss me like i do? I think, they do. :)

They came in your life and make your memory fruitful, they once make you smile, from the bottom of your heart. I still always look forward for friends to come back from kampar and kl and gather together, chill again.     So gonna miss them before our next meeting.


People always leave, but sometimes they come back. - Peyton Sawyer, On Tree Hill



New year resolution:
Never sleep over time again. I think it's gonna be hard... sigh~
Gain weight. It's still a wish now... sigh~
Work for fairer skin.... erm... sigh~

happy 2010 everyone

goodbye to 2009

Merry Christmas.

I love Christmas. i've been trying to figure why. Maybe because it's the only day among all the other celebration that saying wish will come true. Yes, i have too many wishes for this Christmas. Sis asked me to hang a bigger sock so that Santa have the space to fill up all the wishes i made.

Though i always dream for wishes to come true (like everyone else!), but i found out that actually wishes are hard to come true when you wish upon a star, or birthday, or christmas, or shooting star or eyelash that falls on face. Cuz i tried all of it, and almost none of my wishes came true, all along these years. Maybe my wishes are always too hard to be granted. :( So the probability is actually 0.01, in my case, i mean.

But still the 'intention' of Saint Nick is good. A hope for children, that makes me feel good too. It's a white lie telling people that there is actually a 'wish comes true' theory in this world. Obviously Saint Nick is a good liar, every one thinks about him on December 24th before going to bed now. ;) Still, i mean, i love Christmas, totally no intention of ruin anyone's Christmas mood. Haha!

This year, i'm going to barbecue with friends at Paradise Beach on Christmas eve. I hope i'll be happy. :) Thinking back about last year, it was a noob one, but i actually love it. Relax and talks. I love talking with them. When it comes to my friends, no matter how i spend it, it feels just nice for me. :)




Merry Christmas.



Dear santa, my christmas wish for this year, i want for a drink. i love him but i wish to stop it. Any forget-him-drink?

Show me the money!

I hate myself for staying at home today. Urgh!!!

I drag myself into a very serious problem! FINANCIAL PROBLEM
yes yes yes! i loiter in net, i mean saja visiting sites on net and damn! i got hooked on so many nice stuffs! ish!

First up,
LUMIX LX-3, OLYMPUS PEN EP-1, LUMIX DMC GF-1

OLYMPUS PEN EP-1

LUMIX DMC GF-1

LUMIX LX-3

these cameras are PC, which means pro-consumers. As i'm not yet a real pro yet but still, very quite interested to photography, Helbo said PC would be a more suitable choice for me compare to DSLR(i listen to pro~). Plus DSLR is much heavier. i love EP-1 look's but the review of GF-1 is better. and LX-3 amazed me with the spec! urgh! why~

second, a phone! yes! i've been talking bout it all day and night but still not yet buying. i hate myself~
My first choice since half year ago was W705, i love slide phone, is the first-love-effect, you know? My first clourscreen phone was LG chocolate, slide phone. Too bad it's not really good in the spec and compatibility is bad. Now that i lost it (yes, in pearl hill!), i look for the 'shadow' of my first-loved-phone~ But, but, but, obviously i'm a playgirl, now i love W906i and W995. Damn, i'm digging myself a hole that's getting deeper and deeper. :(

by the way, a new phone from my first love's mum-LG. I wonder how they always got the creativity for such a nice design!
EVERYONE, evolution of my first love, still chocolate but it's BL40 chocolate!

isn't it awesome! 21:9 of wide screen, it's like a little movie theater in your hand! First love hurt me badly with bad functionality and compatibility, so it's big hesitation for me when it comes to LG. Plus, it cost almost rm2000 even for AP! Gosh! Still not available in Malaysia, if i want it, have to ask dad to buy for me. Asking dad means.. NO! so..

third,

Instant camera! it cost rm300 with rm22 for 10 film! but i love it. It looks so cute~ it's like an eye of a monster. Now i'm biding it online for a cheaper price rm260, as the owner got it in a lucky draw. But she's back to Australia for study, why i didn't notice it just one day earlier? sigh! And she demand for COD which means the collection of the charges upon delivery. That's not a problem? that's a big problem when the place she asked is Johor Bahru and i'm Penang!

and i dragged my sis into the hole i've been digging by showing her the Hello Kitty's instant camera. Now she's bugging me whole day for the camera. Yes, i set you up. Let's drown together~ :DDDD

Forth
clothes! new year is coming soon! i haven buy a single new clothes for myself! Argh~
Lenses! yes i need new contact lenses! and that cost a big bloody hole on my wallet.
all those tiny tiny stuff cost a lot actually, sigh


now i have to be very very very stingy! Saving money for all this! Jia Xin told me it will be a rainny day when a stingy person's birthday. So sure it will be typhoon, pouring rain or maybe even flood on my next birthday! WAHAHA!

Christmas wish

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To Saint Nick,

Hi, maybe i'm a little too old for a christmas present but it's my first time asking. I might not been a very good girl this year but i'm sure that i will be better next year! So.... can i get this for my christmas present this year? I love this movie.

ps: if i can have the soundtrack of this movie, that would be fine for me as well. :)

Thank you.

the final confess

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http://wondersofcindy.blogspot.com 

Mumbles ❤ my private blog, you should receive email if you are an authorized reader. Try log in. :)

at least i'm honest to myself from the very beginning till the end of time. I hereby declare that i'm free from the cage of heart.

ps: i seriously hope you take the effort to read the blog. It mean truly mean something to me, if you at least read it.

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Last time

like its the last time

if somebody called you, or wrote you a letter
and in it they told you, this was the last night together
would that even change you? would it even matter?
cos lately you barely look me in my eyes

tell me, would you cry?
tell me, would you hold me all through the night?
tell me, would you tell me you were sorry for all the pain you caused me
what will it take for you to realize?

that when i love a man, i love him deeply
when i give my heart i give it completely
so i dont understand
why i have to ask, for you to love me right
you should love me everyday like its the last time
like its the last time

we're goin' in circles, i dont see this endin'
i tell you what i want, but you never listen
i wanna make it work, but we're totally different
maybe you'll shape up, if i said goodbye

that when i love a man, i love him deeply
when i give my heart i give it completely
so i dont understand
why i have to ask, for you to love me right
you should love me everyday like its the last time
like its the last time

i used to blame myself for how things used to be
at night i would question what i'm doin wrong
i see it ain't got a god damn thing to do with me
i gave one hundrend percent and more

last time, make everyday and every night
like it's the last time

Libra

You see, there's a reason why i always believe in friendster horoscope. It's just so true.

Libra horoscope for 15th December 2009

You're talking about everything but the one thing you really need to discuss.

What does it means when you said that we gonna talk about it tonight? I've been waiting and i get nothing. Do you even remember what you said by yourself? Did you ever take THIS seriously?

Fine, let's just not talk & i'll forever hold my peace.

FUCK YOU

Tonight

I was actually trying to post something up, but everytime i write, i got stopped halfway. Thinkin' of, should i write it out? Like what JiaQi feels, i begin to hesitate to blog as the readers grow larger. My first intention to create a blog is to express my feelings, feelings that i can't talk it out. Now that i have a blog, why i still feel myself being tied from what i really wanting to write?

Things been so complicating recently. My life seems so ok but yet i actually feel like a mess. Just like putting my emotion into a blender, i don't even know what the mixture calls. At least one thing i know for sure, i had my biggest relief and realization. Relief that i'm lucky enough to escape myself from the biggest disaster in my life ever and realize that there are some people in this world who would do anything as long as they are hated by everyone.

I'm the wonderfool i've been talking about. Doing stuff that i know i shouldn't have done, believing to people that i promised myself not to, dropping tears while i vowed i will never do so. Sometimes i see my reflection in the mirror, i wonder if this is really the Cindy i want to be? I guess, i'm just tired. I desperately hope for an end. I know tonight is the night. I think i knew the answer long ago, but i just wouldn't believe. What a wonderfool person i am? Waiting for the sentence, so that i can die with all honour.

Tonight is the night.

Laze's brithday

Just came back from hometown, mum cooked bak kut teh~ yum yum
Sis was rushing in time when we come penang. She has to go Gurney on 5pm but we jammed at penang bridge toll. She got geram and she blamed the worker sitting in the counter.

When we passing the toll, sis handed the money
Sis:妈的，收钱就收钱啦，还跟我来个暴牙的！
Me: hahaha！人家暴牙你也不给？！
Sis: 真的嘛~暴牙还敢做收钱的
Me: Wahahahaha!！为什么暴牙就不可以收钱? 歧视人家叻
Sis: 你不知道Traffic jam 看到暴牙更加pekcek的meh？!
Me: rofl!! 哪里有酱的道理啦! hahahahaha!

My sis got me laughing till my stomach hurts in the car. She can simply crap anything when she's pek cek you see! xDDDD

It's time for update! Been really really lazy to update recently. I actually wrote few post but all hang halfway, cant finish it! Sigh! Inspiration, come on~

By the way, i changed my blog songs again. You guys seriously need to listen to it! It's so nice! My sis and i was searching for the song for a month and more i guess? Finally we heard it again on hitz.fm MET10 chart. It's a malaysian artist that hitz.fm keep on promoting last month! how can i not notice it! KRAFT! oh my god! seriously, dont pause! LISTEN!!!! The second song is from my favorite youtube singer, Mia Rose. She is pretty and talented. She has long beautify curly hair, bright eyes, nice skin tone, young, rich, great voice, play guitar and even create her own songs! How i wish i could be her, even just a day~ :)

I promised Vynn to update about laze birthday so here i'm writing it. :)
We actually kinda free until Wuang Ching finally reached Penang on that day. Then we get the summon from Wuang Ching to go Tesco to buy material for the steamboat so me, Enson Tortoise and Jason Tan meet WC at Tesco lar. Jason and i was so focusing playing rubik's cube on the car, and Tortoise was busy teaching Jason the formula. Pity Enson~ he was driving alone with no one talking to him.. *laughs*

We reached Tesco and start to buy materials. Actually Wuang Ching and Da Bing have chosen half of it. So we were just playing round here and there. Still, i was very focus trying to memorize the rubik's cube's solutions. xD Then Tortoise stole some rock candy for us to share.. hiak hiak..

Actually we need to buy chilly sauce, then Wuang Ching the evil suggested that we go kfc to have our dinner and take a bottle from there. I was like, are you serious? Next stop, we're really in KFC having dinner and Enson put a bottle of Thai Sauce into my bag! OMG!

Then we got home and started to prepare everything at Enson's house, cuz my house don't have any knife nor pots! xD I was assigned to peel and fritter garlic, my favorite job actually. I love garlic.

Enson and Wuang Ching prepared for the soup while Da Bing and Tortoise were helping me.

Slowly everyone reached and gathered in Enson's house. Wen Khang, Kelvin, Doraemon, Willy, Esonx and Guang Liang. See what they do..

They are engineering for the steamboat later! Oh~ Do steamboat need programming? No.. well actually they were playing games ler~ ish ish! Steal bones! *translate it to bm urselves pls* Da Bing went out to buy drinks and he called as options are too wide.

Da bing: eh eh eh, i dunno which one to buy le~

Cindy: got what drinks?

Da Bing: got Chrysanthemum, herbal tea, bat poh, melon, white gourd. U guys choose la

Cindy: *yelling* Wuang ching, buy which one better?

Wuang Ching: Chrysanthemum lar.. everyone drinks it.

Da Bing: har~ want meh~ chrysanthemum wor

Cindy: a bo u want which one?

Da Bing: Pat Poh better lar

Wuang Ching & Cindy: Jiak sai u lar.. ad choose liao samo call for what!

Da Bing: haha.. just asking ma~

After Da Bing came back, Eson, Da Bing and me make the drinks and put the ice. We do not have any container so we use my big water bottle that i used to refill drinking water. It is too small that we can only put the ice in it one by one. xD

Then it's time for the surprise, the guys finally have some 'usage', move all the stuff up to 17th floor, laze's house. Of course Wen Khang is in charge of the pot of soup lar~ Then we clean up and went upstairs waiting Laze to come home. Then Alan and See Fouw reached too, so everyone was busy chit chatting while waiting for the birthday boy.

Nanny came finally too, but unfortunately Laze were reaching so he ran down and hide himself at 16th floor. *laughs* Finally Laze came home~ but too bad, he ad knew the surprise coming. Steamboat started, everyone was so hungry that they fight for food before it even cook! Willy ate a meatball that still icy inside!

Everyone got so excited about the food and they spoil the electric cooker. Luckily Enson brought rice cooker for back up. xDDDDD

Then due to some important matters in SP, i left early to go back my hometown. So, that's all. :)

But going back home, and again mum prepared me the chinese herbal medicine. Yerk!

Have you ever drink something that makes you have goosebumps? I did, drinking that med. The next day, comes another bowl on the dining table... T.T

 and i promised that i will only write post like my last post once. 

never again after that.

my new header

It's your feet, walk your way.

please Christmas dont be late. :)