unsaid

What i left unspoken, doesn't mean i don't know

If people chosen to shut the fuck up

Then don't ever ask

Yes i'm single. ;)

time after time

5.30 in the morning

why time passes so slow

i can change the clock but not the time.

sunrise, come sooner please.

my stomach is not well, i dunno if i should eat or what. cuz i afraid i will vomit like last time, weak digest system of mine, pathetic.

i hate to be alone, no one talks to me. feels like i'm the only one alive on the planet. Blame my timid attitude, but when i'm alone, i feel like once i open my door, i'll fall into a dead world. Same world but with no living creature.

i hate this part right here.

sis i miss you, so much. i need to talk.

i heart this.

kill all SUCKERS!

People, i'm in penang again, for two days.

Oh~ net oh net~ you have no idea how much i miss you.

Didn't online for days and of course didn't blog as well. Esonx called me to concern due to my disappearance.. He thought something happened to me.. chill man~

still alive, though not very greatly. Half dead, or should i say, spiritually dead. Whatever, don't care much.

explain this all later, i'm not in the mood for even typing my feelings out. so damn. i wish i have a magic wand, so i can pull the grief in my heart into a box, lock it and threw it aside.

Sadly i'm not.

threw all that aside, this is what happened during my two-week exam period.

3 stupid guys came overnight at my hostel, though they all have their own hostel, one just the hse beside me and two are 2 floors above me.

they force me to watch live porno, though i said no!

i mosaic the 18sx part for public eyes' secure

but i miss him~ glad that he is back~

they squeezed in my pityful sofa and abuse my bolster! T-T

and they worse they three tried to rape me! i scream like hell but nobody comes to rescue, finally they found out that i'm not their vege, so they give up.

i only get to sleep on almost 6am and laze woke me up on 8am, then i cant sleep back. Samo that two hour of sleep i was keep on running from monsters in Mount Eskine. Damn i'm more tired than i haven sleep when i woke up.

SHIT! i hate horror movies!

i tried to cook, with half of my mental on memorizing notes. Actually this is prepared by jiaxin and enson, i just there to supervise.

see, enson is cooking!!

the pity puppy that being dragged to 15th floor to be fooled by Enson then threw back to management.

the dino and the puppy

wuang ching was back the day before my MIS paper and we played till 3.30am. Then she acc my study~ ^^

the maniac and the one who like to show off boxer

two bewitched!

the new 'philosopher'

and my photography work art during laze time of study.

Went to bbq party the day after exam ended and due to my servere sleepiness, i didn't have apettite to eat, but someone ate me! Idiot alam again! He bit me! and i just found out that i got bruises due to the bites! ish!

i drove my car to pg and again~ i suprise everyone with my good driving skills~

RUNNING AWAY IS BEING CHILDISH! FACE THE WORLD! YOU AIN'T NO BABY ANYMORE! FARKER!

Time & Choice

Another day of life, routined.

Damn i'm so sick of this. I hate exam. Guess i dont have to repeat this sentence over and over again, right? Everybody hates it, those who don't, consult your doctor, you might have some mental problem.

17th! come fast please!

Time

I slept on 9am today till 5.45pm which i nearly cant wake up on time to fetch ah Giam ♥ from work. Aikss. Good to see him, i think i kinda miss him. xD I didn't really spend time with him since exam started, let me guess, since 1st of Sept? OMG! it's been so long! Well he praised me for my professional driving skill, i hope he enjoyed the 'excitement' along the ride.

Since exam started i have no time. No time for E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G.

No time for shopping

No time for paradise beach, heneiken, mois

No time for shopping

No time for my mum

No time for red box

No time for mask

No time for hangout

No time for trying to open my hse mail box

No time to rape Enson

No time to take picture!

I sleep or study. That's all for the story for my 24hours per day. After audit paper i thought to go out and have some fun in Red Box, i ended up sleeping while people sang. The DM paper that killed me like a razor blade, makes me realised that, even you spend every second on study, still, your brain dont have 1Gb memory capacity to keep it. Me with my 128Mb still under upgrade process. Well, see you again soon, DM. i rather study smart than study hard. i didn't drop a tear for this exam, cause i know it doesn't my crying after all.

so i have had whole plan for my holidays after exam. Hehe~

gonna have a hair cut, movieS, bbq party, lots of hangout with the gang, learn the way to airport to fetch sis, 2 or 3 birthday celebration, club, Queensbay, going taiping, cameron maybe?.

by the way, langkawi trip still on?

Time, time, time. So few time, so much to do. I may be lavish on time in other people's eyes, as i should be study or make good. But, you have no idea, the time i spent, it worths. Life have more things to experience other than stucking your head inside pages.

Choice

I wonder with choices that people made, sometimes mine too. Seeing them with their choices, i wonder if they will regret or not. But, i may be worrying too much i guess? They seem happy with it. What we can do is just give them some suggestions, choices are still them to make.

Looking at the bright side, are we being opstimistic or too naive?

Now, see the mess that we made, the scene that we caused, the words that we said, the harm that we done.

Aren't you regret?

then we started to find excuses for our choice, put the blame on others, ignore the pain we feel, pretend that everything is fine, close our ears upon gossips, begging for forgiveness, make good for the harm that we done.

Now let's see, isn't looking at the bright side is just being arrogant? Too arrogant to accept that choices are come with two sides.

Good and bad.

Dont ask for forgiveness, if you made the choice without thinking it twice.

Don't blame people for your fault, when you're the one who made them do what they have done.

Don't drop a tear, if you've understood the consequences when you make your choice

Don't look back, when you fell for your own choice

Don't make choices that you know you gonna regret.

No words allow.

I know i shouldn't be giving opinion in other people's life. But i just want to say, for every harm that we done, it marks a scar.

Look at the scars that left on yourselves before you make a choice, or the scars that you left on someone else.

Opps i did it again

Opps! I didn't mean to, but I just said it!

i'm getting more and more bad influence from people lar.. i'm easily influenced and a quick learner as well. I take it as the way i adapt to anything new.

Get in the new world by learning to be part of 'em.

But this is really not a nice thing to learn seriously. Aikss.. I learn to speak foul words. Screw me! OMG! When i was in secondary i dont even know what it means but now i'm learning it so quickly. Stop me please! Argh! i'm trying hard not to speak it but sometimes it just came out from my mouth..

Everytime an event organised, i'll learn so many this kind of bad stuff. It took me so some times to get out of the shadow since orientation week you know.. Now after orientation night, here the flow goes again. Vincent, Alan, Enson, Laze and Hory. When they get together and start to play, i'll be listening their lecture. Lecture of foul words.

You guys ar, stop teaching me bad stuff la. See, now i've to take a long time to rip it off from me ad. He's going to screw me if he knows too. So i better drop it fast before he founds out. :P

By the way, Few days ago, WenKhang came and he praised me for my improvement in Hokkien~ cuz i was talking Hokkien with HockShi.

of course, told you i'm a quick learner.

The dicky one

Boon Khuang teased me that i'm so diciplined that i can wake up 2 hours after sleep. DAMN YOU! Argh!! You know how much i wanted to have a good night sleep! But salute for drinking 7 cups of coffee per day, i lose! Take a bow please! lol!

Feel like i didn't see Laze for days but it turn out that i just went out with him on Sunday night. Stay awake for too long has starting make me confuse about date and time. Aiks.. need to get used to it.

Dinner time jus now, Laze said my atittude is going dicky. Actually i really don't mind you say so, maybe i did go dicky? (laughs) Or because you're turning into the good guy Esonx said so? (but i dont think so) haha.. but Enson says i'm fine just like the usual me ok~ just with worst driving skill. >.<'''

Maybe i'm the only one who cant see myself turning bad, but evil always wins thats why i choose standing on it's side! Tortoise teached me that theory (laughs). I may be naughty but i'm a hard-nosed as well. Mum said the hard-nosed person will never gone bad, cuz she sticks with what she believe.

I believe in

be yourself and that's call perfect.

Don't worry, buddy, still the same LIM CINDY even i go dicky. If i really changed then i'm just turning better. Ain't nothing but a g thing. People, embrace the new me, you might find yourself addict to me. ;)

i love what i love and i will never give up.

倔强 - 五月天

當　我和世界不一樣　那就讓我不一樣　堅持對我來說　就是以剛克剛
我　如果對自己妥協　如果對自己說謊　即使別人原諒　我也不能原諒

最美的願望　一定最瘋狂
我就是我自己的神　在我活的地方

我和我最後的倔強　握緊雙手絕對不放
下一站是不是天堂　就算失望不能絕望
我和我驕傲的倔強　我在風中大聲的唱
這一次為自己瘋狂　就這一次　我和我的倔強

對　愛我的人別緊張　我的固執很善良　我的手越骯髒　眼神越是發光
你　不在乎我的過往　看到了我的翅膀　你說被火燒過　才能出現鳳凰

逆風的方向　更適合飛翔
我不怕千萬人阻擋　只怕自己投降

我和我最後的倔強　握緊雙手絕對不放
下一站是不是天堂　就算失望不能絕望
我和我驕傲的倔強　我在風中大聲的唱
這一次為自己瘋狂　就這一次　我和我的倔強

就這一次　讓我大聲唱
啦啦啦... 就算失望　不能絕望
啦啦啦... 就這一次　我和我的倔強

By the way, still hesitating about the 2 choices we discuss at dinner just now. Really should buy the other one meh? Laze and Enson r~~ Stop trying to influence me lar... Now i so bothered about it d..

Giant baby is back!

(me and my giant baby)

My honey is back! The giant baby that has been resting at home since last year finally get approval to be out and have some fun!

Yes of course, the only reason that my giant baby is out is because my sis is coming back. Dad is so unfair! He purposely pay the road tax so late so that i dont have the chance to take a ride with my honey. I was the good daughter in the family, you know? Now everyone thinks i'm the naughty one. :/

But never mind, i can accept it even my honey only belong to me for two weeks time. At least i have two weeks what~ Went back sp to take my honey with Hory and he nearly kill me for bored him in sp.. Sorry lo~

And i still cant get the chance to buy pisang goreng. The stall is closed! How pathetic! i'm craving for it since like 1 month ago? Damn, i dont like Penang pisang goreng, the taste is different, Laze know what i mean la..

Coming back to Penang and i just realise that the number plate of my honey drop a 8. So now my car goes from BCL 888 becomes BCL 8 8. Even nicer, right? (grinning) going to get it fixed asap ler..

By the way, addictive to nescafe recently. I have to drink it everyday or else feels like my brain cannot work at all. Damn, why nescafe is so nice? Love it deep deep. I'm trying to control not to drink much too, but, exam ma~ that's the strongest reason for ignoring all rules! woot woot!

and something that bother me very much, i cant sleep! Not nescafe's fault ok, don't blame my saint drink! haha. It happens before i start to drink nescafe. I woke up after 2 hours sleep everyday. It's driving me crazy! Not that i dont want to sleep, but i can't!

i dont even need an alarm to wake me. After in bed two hours, i will wake up by myself. Shit lar~ and i dont need an alarm as well. When i say i need to nap for an hour, i can wake up by myself and shut the alarm before it rings. Geng not?

Why it dont happen in last 14 weeks? I lost so many attendance marks cuz i cant wake up on time and missed the class. Damn.

and one thing, i discover why i depend on internet so much. cuz i just cannot tahan without people talking or chatting with me. I need company all the time. So i find myself a new place last night. Enson's house! (laughs) i kacau Ivan and him for hours and ended up sleeping in their room. Tell you guys 1 thing, Enson snores when he sleep de... lol

to Wuang Ching :)

(taken on 16th June 2008 xD)

thanks for accompany me studying for a whole night again

i think i can pass my MIS paper d^^

lucky that you are here with me again

if not sure i'm not studying properly again

though we still chat whole damn lot during study

i miss the time we study together so much

worried that we cant grad

so stressful but still so fun

so pity that we were studying like no day and night

but why when i think back, i'm still so happy about it?

why i always have the study mood when we are studying together?

you put spell on me is it? xD

but when i come back from exam today, you're not here anymore. sob sob..

why you want UTAR dont want me? :/

why you are not studying AAC here with me?! T-T

then we can rock the exam hall again ma..

but since you study there d, dont regret for your choice!

finish the degree and haolien to me please

UTAR not ulu ma~

although like to tease you for always coming back to Penang

but actually i'm very glad that you are here lar~~~ hehe

see, now i'm so pity here, you leave me then i will be so lonely again liao la

nobody force me to eat

nobody force me to when i dont want to study

nobody kacau me when i want to study

nobody tease me

nobody make me laugh like nuts

by the way

thanks for keeping my bed, cuz normally i wont fold my blanket one.. haha

see you in holiday

work hard in your exam too

the legandary Supercute Wuang Ching

i miss you :)

taggie

Rules:
Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with d wedding plan! (:
At the end, choose d people u want to be tagged.
You have to tag the person who tagged you.
If I tagged you, it's because I want to know about you! (:

1. How old are you?
- stll 19 ;)

2. Are you single?
- taken by ah Giam ♥

3. At what age do you think you'll get married?
- erm.. don't know? 27-30?

4. Do you think you'll marry the person you are with now?
- I don't know??

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
- Hehe.. You better wish i not telling it... teehee

6. Who will be your bridesmaid & bestman?
- wan jun! laze! hory! wen khang!

7. Do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
- Garden or Beach.

8. where do you plan to go on honeymoon?
- Paris or Hokkaido

9. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
- not too much, close friends is enough

10. Will that include your exes? -
- Yes, sure.

11. How many layers of cake do you want?
- 5? ( dont say i greedy ya.. ligurl said want 12 le)

12. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
- Evening.

13. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
- James Morrison's songs, MYMP's No Ordinary Love

14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon&fork?knife?
- Spoon & fork

15. Champagne or red wine?
- Wine, liquor, soft drinks.. blahhh

16. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
- right after? love the rush ;P

17. Money or household items?
- Show me the MONEY~~~

18. How many kids would you like to have?
- 2 or 3?

19. Will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
- YES! don't want to forget the sweet memory~

20. Whose wedding plan would you like to know next.
- Wuang Ching!!!


I wish to tag:
Wuang Ching

Laze

Bee

Jason Tan

Vincent

Felicia

Esonx

Laine

Dream

Lv Jun

Hoong Hoong

Abuba

Jia Qi

Cherry

Laine

damn

OH MY FARKING GOD!!!

WHAT THE HECK IS HAPPENNING?!

bla bla bla

今天

梦见牛奶变坏了

我的心和它一样 酸了

然后眼泪掉下来了

谁看到呢？

是镜子里的我

她在和我分享我的眼泪

她无奈的微笑着

就连她也不懂得我为什么落泪了吗？

我擦干泪水

拉起窗帘 看见一到灰色的墙

好想砸碎它 好让我看到正在飞翔的白鸽

为什么我反而被囚禁了？

我怎么离开救赎 越来越远了

每一次都得让自己被彻底打败

才懂得坚强吗？

脚踝的锁 随着我每走一步变得更紧

如果只能困着 却走不到下一个房间

那当初自己上锁的我

是不是太愚蠢了

每一天重复的生活

每一天重复的麻醉

有天我是否会后悔

我所浪费的月日

好想就拿起背包

踏上巴士 架着重重的相机

为眼睛所看到的美丽画面

做个定格

是个遥远的梦想

有一天，会实现吧？

life is dull, though i still hang out a lot

man, i need some spice for my heart ler..

damn

is it bad?

Another day, another sleepless night, i'm so used to these kind of life
is it bad? i don't have a clue actually
night life sounds great though i love sunshine~

Yup... i'm sitting beside Andy at his house living room now
he is studying...... erm nope... sleeping actually
the guy who have an exam in less than 24 hours was dragged by me to watch 'Final Destination 4' together.. is it bad?
Guess not.. like i said, i'm providing entertainment for them to relax~
yes yes.. please don't thanks me, Andy
though i know you are so touched deep down in your heart~
dont have to show it la.. i know then can ad...

I was supposed to help Cherry aka Teddy on her accounting but..
erm.. due to my servere memory loss, i forgot how to do year 1 sem 1 accounting d
without answer, i'm scared that i might teach her the wrong way
so our hands stopped and chatters starts... Andy's fault definitly~
keke
We crapt for 5 hours.. is it bad?
Final Destination's fault okie..
It made us discuss about it and topics related to it and topics not related to it. Haha

Now Teddy went upstairs to bed and Andy is floating in his dreamland
i'm so energetic lar~ aiksss~
Cant log in to facebook i dont know why~
so blogging ^^

aww.. KiKi is looking me with the sad puppy look again..
i know it's cold outside but i cant hug you ok..
KiKi is their recent adopted dog, named by Andy.
Haha.. i wonder if it's happy with it's name

Please Smoke!

Am i being coward?

Why i dont have the guts to ask?

I'm running from the truth? Ya, i afraid of the answer that may comes out. Never thought i am so useless like the others as well. This is not me! this is not me! Why am i turning into someone other than me? Again and again!

Cindy the rocker is no longer alive.

by the way, Laze officially announced that he is going to quit smoking last night, which, i dont believe it at all. XD

sorry for being so NOT supportive but seriously, this quit-smoking-thing isn't really gonna happen lar~

Let's see how long he can tahan :P

Morning exercise

7.08am. Yes. Feel weird to see me blogging on this time le~ Not JUST awake but STILL awake

This kind of time makes me wanna eat McDonalds breakfast nia.. The McD leaflet on my table is seducing me.. sigh~ Been such a long time since i last ate mcD breakfast you know.. Aikss! miss it!

the sun is rising, guess i just have to forgot about it. Gonna practice my morning exercise, SLEEP!! Got to go to bed early now, early in the morning. :DDDD

Good day to everyone

By the way, waiting on someone tonight. I miss him ;)