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Not that i dont wish to say a thing, but i'm too timid to confess. Timid to confess to all the feelings i have and all the things that are going on. I started to become someone other than myself. It's not right. I feel guilty when i started to feel myself selfish, when my bad thoughts started to control me. I dont wish to think like every other, to make me feel better, cuz it doesn't seems right.

If things are meant to be, it will eventually come out in the way it should be, right?

Please do not misunderstanding me as i'm trying distance myself. I'm not trying to run away from anything or anyone; everything or everyone. I'm just standing. Trying to see as far as i can, where my fate and destiny going to lead me to. Trying to see if someone i waited will be at the ending point of my every fall, to catch me from high.






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i dont have the strength to deal with every single hard moment in my life, but those conflict situation keep comes to me. i'm so exhausted. Just tell me the answer, let me die away, or keep going, it's either way.

People says, why're you holding back?

I take a step back when i feel i'm extra, cuz i just dont want to hear people really say out loud that i'm not needed. I dont want to be in a place, where i feel myself a burden. Don't ask me to take a step, when i'm not knowing what will be replied; i dont wish to fool myself in front of every pair of eyes. If there's plenty of sign to tell me, you're in the wrong way, why should i keep myself walking in?

is there a map to guide us on where we should go? guide us to where we belong? i need it, cuz i keep walking into dead ends