hi~ 2010

Hey, it's the last day of 2009, it's gonna be a brand new year after 12am. Well, actually i feel after 12am is just nothing other than supper time. *laughs*

talk about 2009. Everyone been talking bout it. What have i done? Biggest accomplishment, GRADUATED! i have more new friends in my life. :) i saw over 80 shooting stars in one night. I bang a pillar in subaidah. I'm lazier. I stick my butt in front of lappie even more. My outings even more. Actually too much things happened in 2009, i found myself remember nothing when i try to think it back. Everytime we did something and we would say i will remember this all my life, ends up, you remember nothing. Maybe it's because i'm just awake from bed or my weak memory storage? *laughs*

Well at least in this year, i learn a lot. I learn that friends are your only depend when you're away from home. Actually always think so long ago. :) No one worth you fighting with your family, no one ever worth, at least until now.

One thing that i learn it through the hard way is,

people always leave.

I heart this quote from Peyton Sawyer in One Tree Hill. i wrote it on my shoes. So that i can remember it, for every step i take. Don't expect anyone to stay, as everyone has his/her own life to lead. There's no reason for you to disturb other's life for your own frail.

In our lives, we watch people leaving us. Friends, family, lovers, classmates, they leave, one by one. It sounds sad isn't it, that's the ugly truth of life. This year, many people left. Those that we used to hang out like almost every second for everyday, they left. They gone to study in other places. The one who used to joke with me, he gone, to a better place. Well my dad, i should say i'm already used to it since like i was 3? I will not lie, there is also someone who walk into my heart and walk right out.

Well what can i say? Don't expect anyone to stay. I might be pestimistic but this is the thing people should learn. No matter how much i want my friends to stay, i still cant hold them forever. No matter how much i wish those that in heaven come back alive, it still will not happen. Life goes on. I believe that one can survive, no matter what happens. That's what human most gifted talent, surviving. Of course in my case, it's not so serious, but what i'm trying to say here is, i can live. Just tough up, and you will be fine.

Well, thinking back, i'm leaving too, from my classmates, my friends, my family. I leaving for my future. Do they miss me like i do? I think, they do. :)

They came in your life and make your memory fruitful, they once make you smile, from the bottom of your heart. I still always look forward for friends to come back from kampar and kl and gather together, chill again.     So gonna miss them before our next meeting.


People always leave, but sometimes they come back. - Peyton Sawyer, On Tree Hill



New year resolution:
Never sleep over time again. I think it's gonna be hard... sigh~
Gain weight. It's still a wish now... sigh~
Work for fairer skin.... erm... sigh~

happy 2010 everyone

goodbye to 2009

Merry Christmas.

I love Christmas. i've been trying to figure why. Maybe because it's the only day among all the other celebration that saying wish will come true. Yes, i have too many wishes for this Christmas. Sis asked me to hang a bigger sock so that Santa have the space to fill up all the wishes i made.

Though i always dream for wishes to come true (like everyone else!), but i found out that actually wishes are hard to come true when you wish upon a star, or birthday, or christmas, or shooting star or eyelash that falls on face. Cuz i tried all of it, and almost none of my wishes came true, all along these years. Maybe my wishes are always too hard to be granted. :( So the probability is actually 0.01, in my case, i mean.

But still the 'intention' of Saint Nick is good. A hope for children, that makes me feel good too. It's a white lie telling people that there is actually a 'wish comes true' theory in this world. Obviously Saint Nick is a good liar, every one thinks about him on December 24th before going to bed now. ;) Still, i mean, i love Christmas, totally no intention of ruin anyone's Christmas mood. Haha!

This year, i'm going to barbecue with friends at Paradise Beach on Christmas eve. I hope i'll be happy. :) Thinking back about last year, it was a noob one, but i actually love it. Relax and talks. I love talking with them. When it comes to my friends, no matter how i spend it, it feels just nice for me. :)




Merry Christmas.



Dear santa, my christmas wish for this year, i want for a drink. i love him but i wish to stop it. Any forget-him-drink?

Show me the money!

I hate myself for staying at home today. Urgh!!!

I drag myself into a very serious problem! FINANCIAL PROBLEM
yes yes yes! i loiter in net, i mean saja visiting sites on net and damn! i got hooked on so many nice stuffs! ish!

First up,
LUMIX LX-3, OLYMPUS PEN EP-1, LUMIX DMC GF-1

OLYMPUS PEN EP-1

LUMIX DMC GF-1

LUMIX LX-3

these cameras are PC, which means pro-consumers. As i'm not yet a real pro yet but still, very quite interested to photography, Helbo said PC would be a more suitable choice for me compare to DSLR(i listen to pro~). Plus DSLR is much heavier. i love EP-1 look's but the review of GF-1 is better. and LX-3 amazed me with the spec! urgh! why~

second, a phone! yes! i've been talking bout it all day and night but still not yet buying. i hate myself~
My first choice since half year ago was W705, i love slide phone, is the first-love-effect, you know? My first clourscreen phone was LG chocolate, slide phone. Too bad it's not really good in the spec and compatibility is bad. Now that i lost it (yes, in pearl hill!), i look for the 'shadow' of my first-loved-phone~ But, but, but, obviously i'm a playgirl, now i love W906i and W995. Damn, i'm digging myself a hole that's getting deeper and deeper. :(

by the way, a new phone from my first love's mum-LG. I wonder how they always got the creativity for such a nice design!
EVERYONE, evolution of my first love, still chocolate but it's BL40 chocolate!

isn't it awesome! 21:9 of wide screen, it's like a little movie theater in your hand! First love hurt me badly with bad functionality and compatibility, so it's big hesitation for me when it comes to LG. Plus, it cost almost rm2000 even for AP! Gosh! Still not available in Malaysia, if i want it, have to ask dad to buy for me. Asking dad means.. NO! so..

third,

Instant camera! it cost rm300 with rm22 for 10 film! but i love it. It looks so cute~ it's like an eye of a monster. Now i'm biding it online for a cheaper price rm260, as the owner got it in a lucky draw. But she's back to Australia for study, why i didn't notice it just one day earlier? sigh! And she demand for COD which means the collection of the charges upon delivery. That's not a problem? that's a big problem when the place she asked is Johor Bahru and i'm Penang!

and i dragged my sis into the hole i've been digging by showing her the Hello Kitty's instant camera. Now she's bugging me whole day for the camera. Yes, i set you up. Let's drown together~ :DDDD

Forth
clothes! new year is coming soon! i haven buy a single new clothes for myself! Argh~
Lenses! yes i need new contact lenses! and that cost a big bloody hole on my wallet.
all those tiny tiny stuff cost a lot actually, sigh


now i have to be very very very stingy! Saving money for all this! Jia Xin told me it will be a rainny day when a stingy person's birthday. So sure it will be typhoon, pouring rain or maybe even flood on my next birthday! WAHAHA!

Christmas wish

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To Saint Nick,

Hi, maybe i'm a little too old for a christmas present but it's my first time asking. I might not been a very good girl this year but i'm sure that i will be better next year! So.... can i get this for my christmas present this year? I love this movie.

ps: if i can have the soundtrack of this movie, that would be fine for me as well. :)

Thank you.

the final confess

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http://wondersofcindy.blogspot.com 

Mumbles ❤ my private blog, you should receive email if you are an authorized reader. Try log in. :)

at least i'm honest to myself from the very beginning till the end of time. I hereby declare that i'm free from the cage of heart.

ps: i seriously hope you take the effort to read the blog. It mean truly mean something to me, if you at least read it.

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Last time

like its the last time

if somebody called you, or wrote you a letter
and in it they told you, this was the last night together
would that even change you? would it even matter?
cos lately you barely look me in my eyes

tell me, would you cry?
tell me, would you hold me all through the night?
tell me, would you tell me you were sorry for all the pain you caused me
what will it take for you to realize?

that when i love a man, i love him deeply
when i give my heart i give it completely
so i dont understand
why i have to ask, for you to love me right
you should love me everyday like its the last time
like its the last time

we're goin' in circles, i dont see this endin'
i tell you what i want, but you never listen
i wanna make it work, but we're totally different
maybe you'll shape up, if i said goodbye

that when i love a man, i love him deeply
when i give my heart i give it completely
so i dont understand
why i have to ask, for you to love me right
you should love me everyday like its the last time
like its the last time

i used to blame myself for how things used to be
at night i would question what i'm doin wrong
i see it ain't got a god damn thing to do with me
i gave one hundrend percent and more

last time, make everyday and every night
like it's the last time

Libra

You see, there's a reason why i always believe in friendster horoscope. It's just so true.

Libra horoscope for 15th December 2009

You're talking about everything but the one thing you really need to discuss.

What does it means when you said that we gonna talk about it tonight? I've been waiting and i get nothing. Do you even remember what you said by yourself? Did you ever take THIS seriously?

Fine, let's just not talk & i'll forever hold my peace.

FUCK YOU

Tonight

I was actually trying to post something up, but everytime i write, i got stopped halfway. Thinkin' of, should i write it out? Like what JiaQi feels, i begin to hesitate to blog as the readers grow larger. My first intention to create a blog is to express my feelings, feelings that i can't talk it out. Now that i have a blog, why i still feel myself being tied from what i really wanting to write?

Things been so complicating recently. My life seems so ok but yet i actually feel like a mess. Just like putting my emotion into a blender, i don't even know what the mixture calls. At least one thing i know for sure, i had my biggest relief and realization. Relief that i'm lucky enough to escape myself from the biggest disaster in my life ever and realize that there are some people in this world who would do anything as long as they are hated by everyone.

I'm the wonderfool i've been talking about. Doing stuff that i know i shouldn't have done, believing to people that i promised myself not to, dropping tears while i vowed i will never do so. Sometimes i see my reflection in the mirror, i wonder if this is really the Cindy i want to be? I guess, i'm just tired. I desperately hope for an end. I know tonight is the night. I think i knew the answer long ago, but i just wouldn't believe. What a wonderfool person i am? Waiting for the sentence, so that i can die with all honour.

Tonight is the night.

Laze's brithday

Just came back from hometown, mum cooked bak kut teh~ yum yum
Sis was rushing in time when we come penang. She has to go Gurney on 5pm but we jammed at penang bridge toll. She got geram and she blamed the worker sitting in the counter.

When we passing the toll, sis handed the money
Sis:妈的，收钱就收钱啦，还跟我来个暴牙的！
Me: hahaha！人家暴牙你也不给？！
Sis: 真的嘛~暴牙还敢做收钱的
Me: Wahahahaha!！为什么暴牙就不可以收钱? 歧视人家叻
Sis: 你不知道Traffic jam 看到暴牙更加pekcek的meh？!
Me: rofl!! 哪里有酱的道理啦! hahahahaha!

My sis got me laughing till my stomach hurts in the car. She can simply crap anything when she's pek cek you see! xDDDD

It's time for update! Been really really lazy to update recently. I actually wrote few post but all hang halfway, cant finish it! Sigh! Inspiration, come on~

By the way, i changed my blog songs again. You guys seriously need to listen to it! It's so nice! My sis and i was searching for the song for a month and more i guess? Finally we heard it again on hitz.fm MET10 chart. It's a malaysian artist that hitz.fm keep on promoting last month! how can i not notice it! KRAFT! oh my god! seriously, dont pause! LISTEN!!!! The second song is from my favorite youtube singer, Mia Rose. She is pretty and talented. She has long beautify curly hair, bright eyes, nice skin tone, young, rich, great voice, play guitar and even create her own songs! How i wish i could be her, even just a day~ :)

I promised Vynn to update about laze birthday so here i'm writing it. :)
We actually kinda free until Wuang Ching finally reached Penang on that day. Then we get the summon from Wuang Ching to go Tesco to buy material for the steamboat so me, Enson Tortoise and Jason Tan meet WC at Tesco lar. Jason and i was so focusing playing rubik's cube on the car, and Tortoise was busy teaching Jason the formula. Pity Enson~ he was driving alone with no one talking to him.. *laughs*

We reached Tesco and start to buy materials. Actually Wuang Ching and Da Bing have chosen half of it. So we were just playing round here and there. Still, i was very focus trying to memorize the rubik's cube's solutions. xD Then Tortoise stole some rock candy for us to share.. hiak hiak..

Actually we need to buy chilly sauce, then Wuang Ching the evil suggested that we go kfc to have our dinner and take a bottle from there. I was like, are you serious? Next stop, we're really in KFC having dinner and Enson put a bottle of Thai Sauce into my bag! OMG!

Then we got home and started to prepare everything at Enson's house, cuz my house don't have any knife nor pots! xD I was assigned to peel and fritter garlic, my favorite job actually. I love garlic.

Enson and Wuang Ching prepared for the soup while Da Bing and Tortoise were helping me.

Slowly everyone reached and gathered in Enson's house. Wen Khang, Kelvin, Doraemon, Willy, Esonx and Guang Liang. See what they do..

They are engineering for the steamboat later! Oh~ Do steamboat need programming? No.. well actually they were playing games ler~ ish ish! Steal bones! *translate it to bm urselves pls* Da Bing went out to buy drinks and he called as options are too wide.

Da bing: eh eh eh, i dunno which one to buy le~

Cindy: got what drinks?

Da Bing: got Chrysanthemum, herbal tea, bat poh, melon, white gourd. U guys choose la

Cindy: *yelling* Wuang ching, buy which one better?

Wuang Ching: Chrysanthemum lar.. everyone drinks it.

Da Bing: har~ want meh~ chrysanthemum wor

Cindy: a bo u want which one?

Da Bing: Pat Poh better lar

Wuang Ching & Cindy: Jiak sai u lar.. ad choose liao samo call for what!

Da Bing: haha.. just asking ma~

After Da Bing came back, Eson, Da Bing and me make the drinks and put the ice. We do not have any container so we use my big water bottle that i used to refill drinking water. It is too small that we can only put the ice in it one by one. xD

Then it's time for the surprise, the guys finally have some 'usage', move all the stuff up to 17th floor, laze's house. Of course Wen Khang is in charge of the pot of soup lar~ Then we clean up and went upstairs waiting Laze to come home. Then Alan and See Fouw reached too, so everyone was busy chit chatting while waiting for the birthday boy.

Nanny came finally too, but unfortunately Laze were reaching so he ran down and hide himself at 16th floor. *laughs* Finally Laze came home~ but too bad, he ad knew the surprise coming. Steamboat started, everyone was so hungry that they fight for food before it even cook! Willy ate a meatball that still icy inside!

Everyone got so excited about the food and they spoil the electric cooker. Luckily Enson brought rice cooker for back up. xDDDDD

Then due to some important matters in SP, i left early to go back my hometown. So, that's all. :)

But going back home, and again mum prepared me the chinese herbal medicine. Yerk!

Have you ever drink something that makes you have goosebumps? I did, drinking that med. The next day, comes another bowl on the dining table... T.T

 and i promised that i will only write post like my last post once. 

never again after that.

my new header

It's your feet, walk your way.

please Christmas dont be late. :)

I miss you too

Yes. I miss you! Those old time we spent, i still miss it much. Ah~ how good would that be, if we able to turn back time? How good would that be, if we able to do more with the same old ones?

Did i get you? thought i am writing a love post? Gotcha! :P

How i wish we were still in diploma, when everyone is still around this neighborhood. Every night when the time reaches, the car will stop outside my house, and Laze will yell 'Cindy! Faster!' Sure it's movie or dinner again. I miss it.

Or we go to paradise beach again! Bbq sweet potatoes, seafood party, or simply just sit on the big banners, have beers, chew some peanuts and talk. With some songs, with wan jun playing all around, wen khang and his philosophy talk, see fouw and laze betting on tiny stuffs, tortoise drawing tortoise all around. I miss it.

Playing mahjong, when one gets sleepy, another take his/her place. Yeang chuan will complain whoever that's playing so slow. Then, it's all night again. I miss it.

Watching wan jun purposely makes Laze geram then only apologize. Freezing in Q while waiting see fouw and laze finish their snooker games. Laughing out loud while enjoying yeang chuan and wan jun teasing each other. Waiting to eat while Tortoise peeling herbal egg for me. Going back to search for my phone at GSC on 2am. The emergency traffic team, when laze's car broke down at Mount Eskine. I miss it.

Talking non stop until morning and realize that actually we were just crapping. Hiked all the way through to Kerachut, but we end up lying there, with only two bottles of water and some so called poems. Eating at Domino's, we tricked See fouw to drink a cup of chilly coke. How we prank Enson, say i was going to suicide and asked him to check on me. Ends up, we were drinking beer outside my house. I miss it.

GSC. My highest record, 4 movies in 5 days. Whenever new movie is up, we will be there.

Genting! The foo-fit trip, spent 6 hours loitering in Genting before check-in. I still can laugh when thinking bout how Tortoise thought i was missing when i was just sleeping on chairs.

Oh, to See fouw's hostel again. It's like the gather point before every outing.

Sushi King! I remember how yeang chuan grab all the food for us.

Pearl Hill. We spent last Christmas there.

Deebeauty. I love how we always spend half day there with Alviz. I miss when the sofa and the comp was still there. We can even sleep there while waiting our turn.

It all happened in my life. When i stood and i looked back. It was all there. I watch how we laugh, how we chill, how we prank each other, how problems started and solved. and i miss it.

Time passed. It never turns back, that's life. We all moved on our lives. Now i'm not the one who can just call, whenever i got in trouble again. Now when i scare, i cant run to other's hostel to sleepover. Now when i pass foyer, i wont see those people who used sit there and wait for lunch with us. Now i don't talk about SWC anymore. Now the old Khaleel is closed. Now no one cries while studying with me. Now we don't cover the same blanket and talk all night.

Yeang Chuan's in KL now, Wan Jun's in Kampar, Wen Khang and Hory leaved Tarc, See Fouw moved, Laze moved too. I am not in the same place that i will hear car horn on dinner time too.

I stand right here, right now. Looking back the time we spent, and i smiled. A big one. It's meaningful, isn't it? The happiness stays, the memories last.

I miss you, do you miss me too? :)

:/

Wanted to finish the novel i bought but the dizziness got me stop reading. What's happening again this time? I'm tired of trying to find it out. :/ Migraine? Hypo? Weak blood supply? Gastric? Fever? I get enough sleep today, didn't hang out for long, have meals on time, but why still.. and tinnitus is driving me crazy. The dizziness got my mood down.

Didn't feel hungry after eating french fries, but got myself suffering in gastric now. But feeling much better after i made myself hot choco drinks. Guess i just abused my stomach too much recently. It hasn't really have a fully recovery since last semester break.

Do learning, to care about it, i mean my health.

Off to bed. Sleep the dizziness and gastric away.

Shoo~ Go Away Fever!

Okay, setting my butt on the chair and here i am, blogging again. :) Random again~

It's been a rough week for me, cuz i was physically tortured due to illness and mentally tortured due to Enson's kacau (he said i passed the germ to him). Tak boleh tahan betul~~ ish ish~ xD

Got up today feeling much better, just maybe coughing gonna stick with me longer (still coughing till now). Tsk tsk~ Thanks for all the caring, thanks for accompanying me, thanks for buying me food, thanks for bringing me medicine, thanks for urging me to bed, thanks for massage, and thanks for accepting me stubborn! Aww~ you guys are sucha great friends!! xoxo!

Well, i'm a stubborn one, if you know me well enough. No doctor, no pills, no peipagou, and my mum told me NO RICE. I'm obedient one, so no rice. :)

In fact, i'm more like fasting, appetite lost. Duh~ Dunno how much i have to eat to cover back again.. -.-''' Give me a pail of fat please! Hmp! Sick of people calling me bamboo! This is one kind of discrimination you know.

So, last night i freed myself from cage after sleeping for 34hours out of 40 hours i counted. (i did minus the time i woke up for eating cake and subaidah). it scares myself for how long i actually sleep.

Helbo called

H: Don't talk. Let me guess. Sleeping again, for countless hours. You cant even remember, how long you've maintain the sleeping position you are right now. Laptop and water bottle beside your bed, not eating cuz you lazy to get up.

C: Yea

H: And one thing, you're cursing me for calling you at this moment.

C: Damn right, asshole.

H: Oo~ You can call me asshole, means you're conscious! Not bad~ I was worrying if you will sleep and never wake up again. hah!

C: Shut up! Either you hang up or I hang you, on a tree.

H: Hah! Bye!

Went to red box and movie! Well, told you i'm the stubborn one, so i ate the red box buffet and i vomited it out, just some of it. Still glad that i went! Teehee!

"Time Traveler's Wife" is good. You can tell by seeing how much tears Cherry dropped in the cinema. Hah! I love their dialogue and i love their wedding! Awww! I love the band, the garden, the wedding dress! But not the dance floor~ hmm... (fantasying my own :D) Oh, i love the way they show how simple love can be. :)

I'm obsessed about the meteor, and Ivan said throw some lights stick will do. I heard it from somewhere a boyfriend did so for his girlfriend, it's romantic. Andy said my romantic is not expensive. *laughs* Who said romantic supposed to be expensive? Romantic doesn't have to cost a cent. At least for me, it is. :)

BUT

if anyone wanna buy me a 10 karat diamond and claim it romantic, i don't mind too... ^^

I went to Gurney with Hory just now. Loiter loiter~ Nothing to do~ Luckily he is Penang kia, if he has to go back hometown too, i will rot in hostel seriously. *laughs*

Got myself a new pillow~~ My neck! I tortured you for almost a week. Finally you got a new comfy place to rest! We bought pens, just to get 50% off for pillow. xD

and this! Does anyone remember this?

PHOBIA 2 on Monday! Woot Woot! I cant wait for it!

流星雨

流星雨18日划天际　齐来许千万心愿

二零零九年十一月七日 凌晨十二时四十一分

（槟岛西南区陈燕妮6日讯）有人说，看流星划过夜空，并默默向流星许个心愿……在所有的天象中，流星雨该是最浪漫、最迷人的了。根据天文学家预测，今年11月18日的狮子座流星雨可能会出现较大流量，甚至是“暴雨”级别，是市民观赏的好时机。

据悉，狮子座流星雨在1998年和2001年的大规模爆发，让许多爱好者开始了流星雨的观测。

理科大学天文学会顾问张汉友博士表示，根据世界流星雨组织的预报，18日当天若天气好，在凌晨3时至清晨6时45分，朝东的放向望去，料将可看到狮子座流星雨。尤其是凌晨5时至6时，估计流星雨每小时可达120颗。

若在那时，出现1000颗至1500颗，就称为‘暴风雨’。”不过，这仍会有变数。

他说，上一次理大天文学会在理大大规模看狮子座流星雨可追溯到1998年，离今已有超过10年。那时候，3000人聚在理大内，看到了125个火流星。每当火流星在夜空中闪过时，个个观测者都振臂欢呼。2001年，其中一名会员也在孟光水坝见到700颗流星雨。

他继说，届时只要天气晴朗，没月光的干扰，大家可在空旷的地方如大草场观看肉眼可见的狮子座流星雨。

12月份的双子座流星雨来袭

除了狮子座流星雨，张博士指出，12月份的双子座流星雨也是值得观测，该流星雨将从12月7日一直持续到17日，尤其是12月14日达到极盛，每小时流星数量最多可达到120颗左右。

他说，双子座流星雨非常适合观测，不但流星的速度较慢，而且明亮的流星还会留下白色的余迹。

对于这次的双子座流星雨，他认为，从12月13日（星期日）晚上8时至14日清晨6时及14日（星期一）晚上8时至15日（星期二）清晨6时都是看流星雨的好时机。他说，相比与狮子座，双子座流星雨的观看时间比较长，约10个小时。

他还记得，理大师生及天文学会会员约30人就曾在2004年聚在浮罗班台亚齐天文台看双子座流星雨，一看就看了8个小时，从13日晚上至14日清晨，出现1103颗流星的壮观景象，对他而言，确实是最难忘的一刻。

如果那几个晚上的夜空是万里无云的，让我们看流星雨去吧！

流星雨小锦囊

互动百科资料显示，双子座流星雨与狮子座流星雨、英仙座流星雨，合称为“三大流星雨”，备受全球天文爱好者、流星雨迷的推崇。

狮子座流星雨

狮子座流星雨是由一颗叫做“坦普尔·塔特尔”（55P / Tempel-Tuttle）的彗星所抛撤的颗粒滑过大气层所形成的。在每年的11月10日至21日左右出现，平均每33至34年狮子座流星雨会出现一次高峰期，流星数目可超过每小时数千颗。

双子座流星雨

而双子座流星雨，它的流量非常稳定，极大值每小时可达120颗。由于流星雨辐射点位于黄道上的双子座内，它本身又有多个极大时间，且持续较长，因此全球绝大多数地区都有机会观测到它。同时也是唯一一个母体非彗星的流星雨，其母体是小行星3200法厄同（3200Phaethon）。与绝大多数流星雨最为壮观的场面都出现在凌晨的几个小时不同，双子座流星雨的“卖点”是等夜晚一到，爱好者就能看到双子座流星雨了。

i was searching on The Star online but cant find any news related, so this is news i got from kwong wah~ Whee~~~ Hope i wont miss this one as i never watch it before. ^^

Goodbye

Still remember this?

You're Elmo and I'm Cookie Monster.

You're good guy, a damn good one.

Always the smiling face, stupid jokes and infectious giggle

Same thoughts on many things.

Wanted to play, go around the world

be the ranger who first go rush in

make effort for charity stuff, though just little

xD

I don't know what can I do or say at this moment

other than tears

Will you blame me for not being tough?

You must be sadder than anyone of us for leaving everything behind

I hate myself for crying when i suffer less than you do.

You said you know a nice place to watch sunrise.

gonna bring me there one day

now i never got to know where that place is

Lucky to have you as my friend

May you rest in peace.

Yo!

Goodbye, James.

you always smiled.

Explanation

今晚 其实很平淡

可是我却好像看到了很多很多

开始注意到

因为小小的细节，那些往往都被忽略的小细节

让故事的变得不一样

许多事其实都是因小小的细节

而演变成了误会

而误会也越来越深，到了无可救药的的地步

解释啊 解释

曾经我也努力地想要去解释

而到了今天，到了这一刻

其实才发现

解释或否 它已不重要了

因我不再介意 结果是什么

曾经那一些误会

我想要解释

可是，也因为那些我看到的很多很多

解不解释，其实真的重要吗？

曾经我错过的，我想要解释

那一个我错过的挥手，那一个我无心的微笑

可是，

我发现原来我已不再介意解释或否

原来，也不过是微不足道的事

笑一笑，其实没什么大不了

有些误会就随它去吧

回头看，它已消失得无影无踪了

想要解释，把事情纠正

但，有必要吗？

误会也是一种美吧

;)

给一个人的话：

我不需要被哄，我不是小女生

在我老爸面前，我才会偶尔撒撒娇

你该不会觉得你有资格当我老爸吧？

老实说，我觉得我老爸比你帅。

Happy Belated Birthday to Lim Cindy

THANKS

a very big thanks to all of you~ for giving me wishes, for coming to my birthday, for preparing surprises, for buying me prezzies, for warming my heart and for making me laugh. I had a great birthday, a real great one.

Celebrated my birthday two days earlier at Sunset Bistro. My first time there, even though i have been in penang for two years and a half. I love the songs playing there, like 'end of the world', 'Tell carol i love her', i love those old love songs.

Thanks for the cake~ i love it! I'll love it more if you guys didn't wish me to bang more tiang.. (sigh~ now banging tiang is my trademark d izz?) LMAO~ The pitiful cake was half destroyed after they try to stamp my face on it! Aiks! It's tradition, what can i do? ^^

One of my gift. I was forced to wear this in public! Actually i dont need lots of prezzie, what i have is more than enough. I have you guys! I love the way you guys come in and sing the birthday songs aloud. You put a big smile on my face! Really thank you guys, i'm happy~

Aww... Even Felicia is back with her sweetie, love her much much~ ya still a lovely bitch~ muacks!

some are not in picture, too bad~ forgot to get a group picture before leaving.

Happy belated birthday to Lim Cindy. I forgot to wish myself on 26th, so gonna tell myself here. I saw fireworks on my birthday, though it's not for me, but it still beautiful. I'm glad. I saw firework, i watched flame show and i felt my heart smiling that night.

I saw someone scratched a 'PUKIM' on the lift door long long ago. I waited so long but the person didn't put up the last word, well, maybe he/she was in a rush and unable to finish the art work, so i put an A on it few days ago. As mama said cant let work be undone, right? ;)

(Vandalism is not good, please don't attempt it anywhere)

Storm Warriors II! I love this movie! Don't tell me i'm not suppose to like this kind of movie just because i'm girl. I'm a freak among girls, remember?! Nanny claimed that the sword belongs to him, now see, still two other there taking picture with your sword without permission. Screw them!

Sorority row was nice, but still not damn nice. Though i afraid of horror movie but recently kinda addicted to pay to be scared. Damn. It was making me nervous but not yet till my limit. I want more! Woot Woot!

Late in the night, Alan shows us what to do when you hands are full. This is the way, please learn :)

There're still some real great pictures of Nanny that i unable to share it here due to serious threat to the safety of my life. I think he'll slice me if i do. >.<'''

The promise game: Once you promise, you'll have to do it no matter what.

I'm so not gonna play the game again cuz i kena cham cham from it.

This was the first promises

player: i want your koko krunch

me: i want two apple pies in exchange

player: deal!

sorry player, i ate your koko krunch today... hehe. and you owe me movie treats with unlimited times. ^^

i'm missing milo ice in Pearl Hill Cafe lots lots, they have the nicest milo ice cuz they make it very very rich. Yum.. Why sore throat~ sob sob..

Drank two limau ice at Subaidah and now my cough comes back to me again. Sigh~ hard to keep myself not to drink cold drinks. Someone stops me please, slap me! (kidding, dont slap!)

I'm 20, finally not a teen anymore

Sunrise

Hory asked me to define sunshine few nights ago, i answered

'light shine by the sun'

true what... why give me that kind of face... >.<'''

Hory asked me again, to define it personally, after some thoughts, i think the most appropriate answer is

warm embrace

Yea, for me, a warm embrace is sunshine, it's warm and it surrounds you. It warms, from one's inside to out. It makes the atmosphere to go 36.9 degree Celsius yet still comfortable. It scents, like the scent of one's most comfortable old shirt. It's soft like a bed of feathers

i love hugs. It's a shelter for whoever that feel hurt, a boost for whoever that feel discouraged, a restart for a dying heart. Just like the dawn, every sunrise is the reborn for the earth. It saves earth from the dark, it wakes all living, it makes earth not lonely again.

i remember, hugs of the lovers, it was sweet

i remember, hugs of the friends, it makes me smile

i remember, hugs of the family, it makes me brave

i remember, hugs of the strangers, it makes me touched

i love to hug one real tight, so that i can feel my heartbeat against one's, telling my heart that it's never alone.

sunrise, sunrise, looks like morning in your eyes~~~~

sunrise by N.Jones

I want to watch a sunrise, with a hot choco warming my palms and some great music playing there. That would be great, don't it sounds so? :)

I'll be patience enough to wait for the sun, to watch her birth of the day. It must be beautiful to see the dark blue sky turn to orange yellowish slowly. It must be nice to feel the the cold slowly fades away and the warm wraps.

Jason tan complimented me for writing this: :)

buy me a sunrise that will never fade, a glory rose that will never die, a true love that will never say goodbye.

It's my msn personal message, actually, it was just a random thought. Haha. There's no sunrise that will never fade, no glory rose that will never die, and well true love?

Jason, let's have a little faith in it. Maybe it will surprise us 5 or 10 years later? A true love is worthed to wait. Do give it a chance, we're still young. =)

i'm so bored, that's why i blog

Sitting on my bed, Cherry is sleeping on my left, Hory is plock-ing at my back (Plock is the FB application that we got addicted since last night), while moo head and bear head are sitting still on my right. A lazy day for all of us. Just gonna put on some random stuff cuz i'm too bored.

Changed my blog's song again like i always did. I put 4 songs this time. If you guys have the time, listen to all 4, i heart all these songs and the meaningful lyrics. Good music are meant to be shared. :)

1. Officially Missing You by Tamia

2. Make You Feel My Love by Adele

3. I Wish You Love by Rod Steward

4. Keep On Trying by Poco

I got the officially missing you from a link posted in facebook by one of my primary school classmates, it's a real nice song, isn't it? I've been repeating the song since i got it. The version in fb was sang by twin sisters, Janice and Sonia. They're very great too.

Make you feel my love was strongly recommended by Hory. He sent it to me via msn but i was busy watching series so i left it aside that time. After he remind me, i checked it and it turns out to be one of my favorite as well ^^

I downloaded I wish you love after watching 'and i hate you so'. It's an old movie that keep on repeating on tv. The song Aaron Kwok played for Kelly Chan in fm when she's going to migrate. The version in the movie was sang by Andy Williams, but i cant find his version. Rod Steward is nice too..

Keep on trying, from my favorite series all the time, Bones! It's a song that Brennan like it when she was a little girl. I think it was season 2, now season 5 just started, i'm so overwhelm bout it!

p/s 1: Well i'm quite surprise that you actually read my blog! Last time you said you won't waste your 'precious' time on my blog, now you did! haha! Thanks for the care too.

p/s 2: Congratulation to Helbo for reaching South Africa without feeding himself to tiger, lion, leopard, elephant, giraffe, monkey, turkey or squirrel! All the best, buddy

please christmas don't be late. :)

Liar & Regrets

Since we're small, we're taught not to tell lies. Lies = not good. When we grow up, it comes something call 'white lies', saying that we're lying for good. Well, it's just an excuse that grown up made up so that they can lie without feeling guilty, isn't? But think it again, who able to remain honest, when it comes to the thing and person you care?

Everyone lies, including me. Just when you asked, i lied. Taking Helbo's advice from last time, lying for the best interest of one's! So i'm lying for the best interest of... Well it doesn't matter. Wait, I'm telling white lies too? I dunno. I don't care. It's just telling the truth wont help anything get better, why waste my saliva?

I buried the truth in my heart when i decided to bury the past. Don't try dig it out, cause my heart is sealed with layers of lies. Some words that i would much like to share to someone 'Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.'

white lie = a lie tell by an advanced liar to persuade other liars that lying is not a bad thing.

white lie is a lie that makes the world looks beautiful, though it don't for real. A lie that makes us believe there's a Santa in North Pole. A lie that you tell when you know, the truth is rather disappointing to be discovered. White lie is a lie that we tell ourselves 'i lie for one's own good' so that we able to sleep at night.

white lie is a lie people choose to believe. Just like when people tell condom (those that know, they know who is him lar) to go after her, he chose to believe them instead of the truth told by bra (again, those who know will know who i'm talking about). Cuz the truth is ugly so condom rather choose to not to believe. White lie is a imaginative truth that people create for condom to live it. Condom break his heart and those white liars, you enjoy the show?

i'm a liar that only tell white lies, so i'm good. Yea, i'm just being cynic.

Sometimes i regret, for doing what i did, for telling what i told, for listening to critics that i don't need to know, for watching scenes that i can live without seeing it, but i never regret for my choice. Cuz my heart speaks my choice.

I never regret that i was once with you, gsf.

I would much rather have regrets about not doing what people said, than regretting not doing what my heart led me to and wondering what life had been like if I'd just been myself.

Follow your heart, let the melody of heart flows. Even if the ending is not what you imagined, you'll still be smiling.

If you never have the guts to tell someone something, ask yourselves, would you wonder how things will be different 10 years from now?

Live. Love. Laugh

Semester 2

It's my tradition to restock junk food at the beginning of every new semester. So i went to Tesco on Saturday to stock up.

and i spent about RM150 on junk food. Call me a monster, but i just can't survive without junk food. Actually i bought much lessor, as many types were not on the rack. Wuang Ching opened my closet and got shock! haha

Tuesday come faster please~ I wanna go pasar malam to buy biscuit~ Those i bought last week is almost finish by Wuang Ching and me ad..

Went to DeeBeauty with sis before coming back yesterday, funny things happened again, but let's just not talk bout it. Cuz as it always been, it's not something that i am proud of ler. ~.~''' (yes, i still dont 'read' roads)

Open my room's door and get shock. The last time it looks this messy was when the kaki come to overnight after club. Haha.. That's what happens when two girls share a room, or should i

say when Wuang Ching and i share a room. xD

But after cleaning, it's my lovely room again. It took my almost two hours to clean it. Fuh~ tired la wey..

I wonder what big day last night was? People kept playing with firecrackers at dinner time just now. Argh~ Don't they know that it sounded much louder when you hear it from 15th floor? Grrr~

People said: life's like a roller coaster.

If it really do, then i think i must have on it for too long and cant feel my ass anymore. Or else why didn't i scream like everyone else when i see the result just now. Man~ i'm so numb for it. Haha

Woke up from bed today feeling kinda blur. I thought is the hangover, cuz i was like on a rocking boat, hard to maintain my balance. But, the problem is, i only drank one beer when i went out with Shinigami and Andy last night. -.-'''

I opened the door, but cant see anything. It's all dark for me even though it was 9.30am. -.-''' I closed my eyes and the next thing i know, i'm on the floor. For that moment i thought i was sleepwalking. LOL! Then a lump appeared on my head only i realize i wasn't dreaming.

I lost conscious for few ten seconds i guess? and damn, now i know the floor is hard. I was sitting there noob for 10minutes before i stand back up and go to shower. Then the pouring rain just came and i headed back to my lovely bed and sleep. Skipped my lecture. :P

Don was insisting me to go see a doctor when he called me afternoon.. Chill man~ it's not like i'm gonna die or whatever. *choi* I was actually looking for excuses to skip it. Urgh~ you know i hate doctor, I hate the clinic smell and i hate pills.

Not enough blood + hypo tension.

Doctor: Yes, what happened?

Don: She fainted when she woke up this morning, and she knocked her head on the floor.

Doctor: So you knocked your head on the floor and you fainted?hahaha!

Don+Cindy: -.-'''

Doctor: Oh~ That was a joke. Let me see. Open your mouth, arrrrrrr~~~~~~~

Cindy: :O

Doctor: Show your tongue

Cindy: :P

Doctor: Wa~ your tongue is so unique.. You carved your tongue? Do it hurt? But the pattern not very nice lar.

Cindy: i born with it. -.-'''

Doctor: oh~ Let's hear your chest and check the blood pressure

after checking

Doctor: if blood pressure got QC then you must have failed

Cindy: (whispering) Are you sure this is a legal, certified doctor?

Don: (whispering) I think so?

Doctor: Hmm.. Your heartbeat is lousy dancer lo.. the tempo is a bit skipped. Hypotension and not enough blood.

Don: Then what should she do?

Doctor: I think you know what i'll tell you, right? This is quite normal for underweight person. So, you can still have your life, just remember to eat the pills to increase blood supply.

Cindy: pills?! T-T

Then Don asked about my frequent vomit and reduced appetite problem. I'm not interested to write it out but you guys can just imagine the dialogue yourselves.

Still, he gave me pills. Urgh!!!

Thanks Don for caring but, now Helbo them are nagging me like a nanny. >.<'''

Compensation of my unlucky day: Red Box and Sushi King!

whee.. No pics for red box, i was too busy shouting, ehem, i mean singing. xD

Then, Vincent and Cherry joined us to go for Sushi King.

None of us ate more than 10 plates. Sigh~ gotta go again!

and they almost finished two of this

KASUT and her smoked salmon

Alan Oh's golden ball jumped out!

lickin' good?

I'm paying respect to Mr. Andy Ang for his heroic behavior! haha.

Today is a busy day. Met with lots of funny stuff and weird people. But i'm happy. :)

I'm amazed by how fast words can be carried from mouth to mouth.

I'm sorry if my words hurt, but i don't want to lie. Confession is the last thing i can do to make it right.