goodbye march

it's the last day of march. I hope i'll recover when the clock hits 12, feeling kind of sick.
infected by friend maybe. I thought i was strong enough, guess i might be wrong.
for both physical n mental.

bad mood, so i'm declaring holiday myself today, no books allowed.
I'm girl, i don't really need a good reason to be paranoid, don't i?

is April going to be a good month? Why i'm stuck with some bad feelings?
Better not be, cause i had enough to worry.

wish to book a flight and runaway. It won't be long until i finally decide to run.
There's just too much that i don't wish to face now.
i wanna run.

难过的时候，笑容像个面具，
所以对不起，我想诚实面对。
                                                       quoted from chusiang.



by the way, i miss talking to yeang chuan very muchie.

secret code: i need ice-cream. :(

嘿 女孩

嘿 女孩
何必生气了呢？
为了一个陌生的人 让自己一天过得不快乐
其实一点都不值得
或许这辈子 你就只见他这么一次
不如大方一点 成全他的自负:)

嘿 女孩
他只是无数混蛋里的其中一个
未来你会遇见的 多如恒河沙数
如果他已经让你 无法忍耐
那接下来 更多更多的
你要如何面对呢？
笑笑吧，笑起来好看得很呢

嘿 女孩
先入为主的人 脑袋里已被自己的道理塞满
怎么会有空隙 去接受别人的意见
若有些人认为活在井底 很快乐
那把它拉出井外 他也只会嫌你多管闲事
不会有任何奖励

嘿 女孩
长大后你就会发现
不是每件事情 都得坚持己见
其实每个人都有自己坚持的事情
理念不同的时候很多
总有一天你也会听完后，
笑着说；‘你说得，挺好的’

拍过无数照片 总希望回忆可以变永恒

到最后却在一本重要的相簿里

看不见自己

我该庆幸自己总是活得潇洒

还是伤心自己不被眷恋？

嘿 女孩

别再如此执著了 别太瞧得起自己

自负的以为 你和别人有什么不一样

要知道 

有许多事情不能成正比

saja~

A little sneak off from my notes that gonna suffocate me. Laze around a little while, i guess it won't be too bad right? :) I have nothing to do actually, just i hate to sit still and face the book. Haha. So a random text will do (help to waste my time).

Mum made guai ning gou last Sunday when i supposed to come to Penang by sis's car. Due to my madness for guai ning gou, i choose to stay for one more day and go back by bus the next day so that i can eat it more. Friends say I just a little too desperate for it. Well, everyone has his/her own favourite, right? :)

And see, my mouse is in serious wound. :( The wire loosen and it cannot be detected when i plug in, so now i gotta tie it up with rubber band so that it can be detected. It look so pity, like a Sigh~ Time for a new mouse? but i just got this for not even a year. I should have keep the receipt, the warranty is for a year. I thought that it won't break down so soon but looks like i shouldn't trust too much on quality control nowadays.

Urgh~ gotta get my arse off the laptop and start study ad ( my arse gets a little sticky from time to time, you know?) Final is coming AGAIN! Less than one month left. Luckily i didn't fail any paper last semester, or else my life going to be much worse than what i'm having now. But still every time i try to start early, i will still end up burning midnight oil at the night for at the last week before exam. When i realise that i'm going to die horribly if i still don't study, then only i will start to scare and study. LAZY KILLS~ haha

Two paper in advance diploma means this

so think it through before you decide for college.

random

昨晚严重失眠，1点多上床，4点多才迷迷糊糊睡着
没到9点，就醒了。
难得昨晚下大雨啊~
竟然失眠，浪费掉一夜好眠。唉~

难得快乐的是，今天又下雨了！
今天要早早睡！

刚才出门时，到处都淹水
可怜的我，为了我家被绑着的狗，冲回家帮他松绑。
结果，他没湿，我湿，因为车上没雨伞。:(
冲回上车，却没地方去。
要看alice in the wonderland
竟然full到只剩下两个位。
天绝我也！

so, good night.

坚刚

有时候记性不好也是件好事

刚才塞了rm10++进裤袋
拿出来的时候竟然变成接近rm40
原来是上次穿这件裤子时忘了把钱拿出来
虽然本来就是自己的钱
可是还是很开心~
赚到！






回家时找到了一张妈妈去改名的纸。
亚洲姓名命理研究所，妈妈说，很准的哦！
我就把我的名字的笔画算一算。
第一个字 代表天运
第二个字 代表人运
第三个字 代表地运

第一个字+第二个字= 鸿图运

第二个字+第三个字=  ? ? 运 (忘了)

我很喜欢我的名字的意思。

以繁体文来算，我的名字
第一个字 八划
第二个字 八划
第三个字 十六划

八划 坚刚 吉

意志如铁石，刚情富进取之气象，排除万难能贯澈目的。

名利两得，忍耐克己，逐成大功，信用厚重，得发展家运之象。

有发明机能，获得众望，有自立独行的能力，贯澈志望，可望成功。

十六划 贵人得助 吉

此数为化凶为吉之象，有首领之才，能服众人，受人尊仰，集名望于一身。

获得此数能功成名就，富贵从事官臣，政治家，终身幸福之命运也！

二十四划 家门余兴 吉

温和顺良，安稳余兴万宝集一门，福之天来之大吉祥能兴家立业。

有大富或声誉之运名，前途无限之大吉祥也。

勤俭建业，白手起家，财源广进，到老愈丰，为子孙继成余庆之福运，女性有此数多为性格文雅贤淑。

果然用RM500算回来的名，是不一样点的。哇哈哈!

因为我喜欢名字里有两个‘坚刚’。

总觉得自己不够坚定，

一直都希望自己有勇气，可以对自己的决定，坚毅不移。

原来老爸早已经预知我会是个不够坚定的人，所以就在我的名字里就给了我两个‘坚刚’。:)

还加上我是文雅贤淑列~ XD

ps: 我的华文名不是 林 心 滴 。 

几乎所有的college朋友都不知道我的华文名是什么，应该只有两个人知道吧？越多人不知道，我就越不想讲~ 嘻嘻 :P

掌嘴

如果这个世界只有文字，没有语言，或许我会过得好一点吧？

正&负

忘了曾经在哪看到一篇文章，到现在还有着很深刻的印象。
开始时，你欣赏她的大方，吵架时，你说她浪费
你说你喜欢她节俭，但分手时，你说她吝啬。

当初吸引你的是他的幽默，到最后你最嫌弃的是他的不正经
在一起时，你说他爱自由，结束时，他变成了不负责任。

他真的好关心你，可是之后你抱怨，他管太多了。
认识时，她举止优雅，反目时，她好做作！

她温柔体贴，三年后，她这叫没主见。
你觉得她敢爱敢恨，曲终人散时，却说她巴辣

你说这男人有斗志，然后你说他城府深，心机重
你喜欢他帮你做家务，十年后，你反问自己，为什么爱上一个没出息家伙？

在一起的原因，变成了分手的理由。
爱上时，把他赞得天上有地下无，结束时，所有你称赞过的话，都变成你眼里每一个不能容纳的缺点。
怪不得大家常说，起点就是终点，原来，不过如此。

当你喜欢一个人，你可以包容他所有缺点
但当你不喜欢一个人，就算他是神，你也能数出一罗罗的不是。
就那么简单。

果然是人生百态，给你拍拍手，我也只能一笑而过。
真是个收获丰富的假期。

今天说，你啊，江山易改，本性难移叻~

隔天说，你！你变了！我刚认识你时，你不是这样的！

(so, 到底他是有变，还是没变？)

真是受够了~ =.='''

有个朋友到现在还是我分手理由排行榜的第一名。

厌倦了女朋友，说分手时，女生坚持要知道分手的理由。

找不到女生的缺点，他竟然说：

‘你那天吃咖喱面没吃完！不节省！’

女生哭着接受了，我的下巴也差点没跌下来了。

最后

原来没有缺点也是错... 厉害吧~ :)

life update :)

Taadaa! it's a new post! I actually have a lot of drafts, like 5, i guess? Never finish writing it. Well, just leave it for the next time when i have the mood to continue.

officially announcing it here, as to everyone and even my own surprise, 

I PASSED ALL! 

wooohooo! I expect to fail 3 subjects, but i got the biggest luck on earth ever! Good luck to those who still haven't get the result, i hope you're either as lucky as me, or get whatever result that you aimed for! So, all the sleepless nights are now paid off, and i think it worth!

This Chinese New Year is not the happiest year for me, maybe when you start to grow that's the time you start to lose the passion to stuff you used to love. Year by year the feeling of Chinese New Year dropped, i even didn't realise when is sa chap meh. Plus the burning whether of 36.6 degree celcius makes new year even more unbearable. But, still i get to hang out with friends, have a tuan yuan breakfast on sa chap meh, visit to their houses, it's very nice indeed. ^^

dinner at Le Boss & at Cherry's house & clouds of Taiping

And yes, i will never mix up Kamunting and Kambing ever again!!! ish~

After new year, they start new semester but i still hanging around with nothing to do. This long holiday makes me wonder what can i do to spend my every freaking free holiday. Guess i just have to get used to it. Don't jealous please, holiday is only available for lazy ass. :) Though i have nothing to do, but i still stay in Penang now. Waiting them to come back from college everyday and go out. How pathetic huh? but it's much better compare to staying at home. DULL So, the first week of their new semester, we went to Genting to escape from the sizzling hot whether, gosh... i love fog that surrounds me everywhere i go~ 

We took a lot of pictures, for your information, we have total of 6 cameras and many many camera phones on duty! Here are some of my favourite

we are posers!

i love this pic!

Dinner

It's me on the left, clothes plus jacket plus laze's clothes, wrapping up like a bak zhang and hibernating at McD! xD

walked for almost 45 minutes for this picture.. 

bunch of US!

Just reached!

Hey! we got a mushroom in the house~ yoo yoo~

good boy~

It's fun! It's real fun that night! I specially love when wen bin lose in cards game!

ain't he just so breathtakingly pretty? xD

The long-time-no-eat cotton candy and by the way i looked so short! :(

new love story starts here!

It was a total chaos when we a bunch of friends go out together. Everything is playable! On the bus, the weight scale, the height measurer, the balloon, even the wishing pond. They can make everything a game. *laughs* Still, for the outdoor games, pirate ship is always a pass for me since standard 6. There is no way that i will go on it again! I love how we play card games, i love when i get free massage, i love when we go supper, i love when we go garden, i love when eat waffle, i love when i use balloon to knock peoples' heads, I love Wen Khang's stupid magic, i love i love....

By the way, i adopted a bear doll and i named it, Mowgli. No why, just think that the name belongs to it.

ain't it cute? :)

After got back from Genting, i went to KL for my sis Liverpool JMU convocation at KLCC Convention Centre. Congratulation for her graduation! We met our cousin, which i can never recognise if i see him on the street, he came to hotel to bring us to dinner. Sometimes it feel so warm that even we are not close, but there's still a tie that bring us all together. He said he used to hug me when i was small but i have totally no image of him. I was too small back then. At least i remember his name now, Wei Qiang. xD

I still can never understand why some people said that we looked alike. By the way, who is the one who said that i'm my sis elder sis har?! I where got look so old la!!!! :'(  

Fate is undeniable, cause the hallway was so big but still he was standing like 3 metres away from me only! So happy to see Yeang Chuan! It's even more surprise to know that my dad is actually a good friend of his dad, and his mom knows my cousin. So i chat with Yeang Chuan, my dad chats with his dad, and my mom chats with his mom. Such a funny scene. Haha I wonder if my sis knows his brother? They are same year graduands. 

please forgive my pose that is a little bit not so lady~ xD

That's all for it now. Enough story about life, will tell more about 'Mind'.