Explanation

今晚 其实很平淡

可是我却好像看到了很多很多

开始注意到

因为小小的细节，那些往往都被忽略的小细节

让故事的变得不一样

许多事其实都是因小小的细节

而演变成了误会

而误会也越来越深，到了无可救药的的地步

解释啊 解释

曾经我也努力地想要去解释

而到了今天，到了这一刻

其实才发现

解释或否 它已不重要了

因我不再介意 结果是什么

曾经那一些误会

我想要解释

可是，也因为那些我看到的很多很多

解不解释，其实真的重要吗？

曾经我错过的，我想要解释

那一个我错过的挥手，那一个我无心的微笑

可是，

我发现原来我已不再介意解释或否

原来，也不过是微不足道的事

笑一笑，其实没什么大不了

有些误会就随它去吧

回头看，它已消失得无影无踪了

想要解释，把事情纠正

但，有必要吗？

误会也是一种美吧

;)

给一个人的话：

我不需要被哄，我不是小女生

在我老爸面前，我才会偶尔撒撒娇

你该不会觉得你有资格当我老爸吧？

老实说，我觉得我老爸比你帅。

Happy Belated Birthday to Lim Cindy

THANKS

a very big thanks to all of you~ for giving me wishes, for coming to my birthday, for preparing surprises, for buying me prezzies, for warming my heart and for making me laugh. I had a great birthday, a real great one.

Celebrated my birthday two days earlier at Sunset Bistro. My first time there, even though i have been in penang for two years and a half. I love the songs playing there, like 'end of the world', 'Tell carol i love her', i love those old love songs.

Thanks for the cake~ i love it! I'll love it more if you guys didn't wish me to bang more tiang.. (sigh~ now banging tiang is my trademark d izz?) LMAO~ The pitiful cake was half destroyed after they try to stamp my face on it! Aiks! It's tradition, what can i do? ^^

One of my gift. I was forced to wear this in public! Actually i dont need lots of prezzie, what i have is more than enough. I have you guys! I love the way you guys come in and sing the birthday songs aloud. You put a big smile on my face! Really thank you guys, i'm happy~

Aww... Even Felicia is back with her sweetie, love her much much~ ya still a lovely bitch~ muacks!

some are not in picture, too bad~ forgot to get a group picture before leaving.

Happy belated birthday to Lim Cindy. I forgot to wish myself on 26th, so gonna tell myself here. I saw fireworks on my birthday, though it's not for me, but it still beautiful. I'm glad. I saw firework, i watched flame show and i felt my heart smiling that night.

I saw someone scratched a 'PUKIM' on the lift door long long ago. I waited so long but the person didn't put up the last word, well, maybe he/she was in a rush and unable to finish the art work, so i put an A on it few days ago. As mama said cant let work be undone, right? ;)

(Vandalism is not good, please don't attempt it anywhere)

Storm Warriors II! I love this movie! Don't tell me i'm not suppose to like this kind of movie just because i'm girl. I'm a freak among girls, remember?! Nanny claimed that the sword belongs to him, now see, still two other there taking picture with your sword without permission. Screw them!

Sorority row was nice, but still not damn nice. Though i afraid of horror movie but recently kinda addicted to pay to be scared. Damn. It was making me nervous but not yet till my limit. I want more! Woot Woot!

Late in the night, Alan shows us what to do when you hands are full. This is the way, please learn :)

There're still some real great pictures of Nanny that i unable to share it here due to serious threat to the safety of my life. I think he'll slice me if i do. >.<'''

The promise game: Once you promise, you'll have to do it no matter what.

I'm so not gonna play the game again cuz i kena cham cham from it.

This was the first promises

player: i want your koko krunch

me: i want two apple pies in exchange

player: deal!

sorry player, i ate your koko krunch today... hehe. and you owe me movie treats with unlimited times. ^^

i'm missing milo ice in Pearl Hill Cafe lots lots, they have the nicest milo ice cuz they make it very very rich. Yum.. Why sore throat~ sob sob..

Drank two limau ice at Subaidah and now my cough comes back to me again. Sigh~ hard to keep myself not to drink cold drinks. Someone stops me please, slap me! (kidding, dont slap!)

I'm 20, finally not a teen anymore

Sunrise

Hory asked me to define sunshine few nights ago, i answered

'light shine by the sun'

true what... why give me that kind of face... >.<'''

Hory asked me again, to define it personally, after some thoughts, i think the most appropriate answer is

warm embrace

Yea, for me, a warm embrace is sunshine, it's warm and it surrounds you. It warms, from one's inside to out. It makes the atmosphere to go 36.9 degree Celsius yet still comfortable. It scents, like the scent of one's most comfortable old shirt. It's soft like a bed of feathers

i love hugs. It's a shelter for whoever that feel hurt, a boost for whoever that feel discouraged, a restart for a dying heart. Just like the dawn, every sunrise is the reborn for the earth. It saves earth from the dark, it wakes all living, it makes earth not lonely again.

i remember, hugs of the lovers, it was sweet

i remember, hugs of the friends, it makes me smile

i remember, hugs of the family, it makes me brave

i remember, hugs of the strangers, it makes me touched

i love to hug one real tight, so that i can feel my heartbeat against one's, telling my heart that it's never alone.

sunrise, sunrise, looks like morning in your eyes~~~~

sunrise by N.Jones

I want to watch a sunrise, with a hot choco warming my palms and some great music playing there. That would be great, don't it sounds so? :)

I'll be patience enough to wait for the sun, to watch her birth of the day. It must be beautiful to see the dark blue sky turn to orange yellowish slowly. It must be nice to feel the the cold slowly fades away and the warm wraps.

Jason tan complimented me for writing this: :)

buy me a sunrise that will never fade, a glory rose that will never die, a true love that will never say goodbye.

It's my msn personal message, actually, it was just a random thought. Haha. There's no sunrise that will never fade, no glory rose that will never die, and well true love?

Jason, let's have a little faith in it. Maybe it will surprise us 5 or 10 years later? A true love is worthed to wait. Do give it a chance, we're still young. =)

i'm so bored, that's why i blog

Sitting on my bed, Cherry is sleeping on my left, Hory is plock-ing at my back (Plock is the FB application that we got addicted since last night), while moo head and bear head are sitting still on my right. A lazy day for all of us. Just gonna put on some random stuff cuz i'm too bored.

Changed my blog's song again like i always did. I put 4 songs this time. If you guys have the time, listen to all 4, i heart all these songs and the meaningful lyrics. Good music are meant to be shared. :)

1. Officially Missing You by Tamia

2. Make You Feel My Love by Adele

3. I Wish You Love by Rod Steward

4. Keep On Trying by Poco

I got the officially missing you from a link posted in facebook by one of my primary school classmates, it's a real nice song, isn't it? I've been repeating the song since i got it. The version in fb was sang by twin sisters, Janice and Sonia. They're very great too.

Make you feel my love was strongly recommended by Hory. He sent it to me via msn but i was busy watching series so i left it aside that time. After he remind me, i checked it and it turns out to be one of my favorite as well ^^

I downloaded I wish you love after watching 'and i hate you so'. It's an old movie that keep on repeating on tv. The song Aaron Kwok played for Kelly Chan in fm when she's going to migrate. The version in the movie was sang by Andy Williams, but i cant find his version. Rod Steward is nice too..

Keep on trying, from my favorite series all the time, Bones! It's a song that Brennan like it when she was a little girl. I think it was season 2, now season 5 just started, i'm so overwhelm bout it!

p/s 1: Well i'm quite surprise that you actually read my blog! Last time you said you won't waste your 'precious' time on my blog, now you did! haha! Thanks for the care too.

p/s 2: Congratulation to Helbo for reaching South Africa without feeding himself to tiger, lion, leopard, elephant, giraffe, monkey, turkey or squirrel! All the best, buddy

please christmas don't be late. :)

Liar & Regrets

Since we're small, we're taught not to tell lies. Lies = not good. When we grow up, it comes something call 'white lies', saying that we're lying for good. Well, it's just an excuse that grown up made up so that they can lie without feeling guilty, isn't? But think it again, who able to remain honest, when it comes to the thing and person you care?

Everyone lies, including me. Just when you asked, i lied. Taking Helbo's advice from last time, lying for the best interest of one's! So i'm lying for the best interest of... Well it doesn't matter. Wait, I'm telling white lies too? I dunno. I don't care. It's just telling the truth wont help anything get better, why waste my saliva?

I buried the truth in my heart when i decided to bury the past. Don't try dig it out, cause my heart is sealed with layers of lies. Some words that i would much like to share to someone 'Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.'

white lie = a lie tell by an advanced liar to persuade other liars that lying is not a bad thing.

white lie is a lie that makes the world looks beautiful, though it don't for real. A lie that makes us believe there's a Santa in North Pole. A lie that you tell when you know, the truth is rather disappointing to be discovered. White lie is a lie that we tell ourselves 'i lie for one's own good' so that we able to sleep at night.

white lie is a lie people choose to believe. Just like when people tell condom (those that know, they know who is him lar) to go after her, he chose to believe them instead of the truth told by bra (again, those who know will know who i'm talking about). Cuz the truth is ugly so condom rather choose to not to believe. White lie is a imaginative truth that people create for condom to live it. Condom break his heart and those white liars, you enjoy the show?

i'm a liar that only tell white lies, so i'm good. Yea, i'm just being cynic.

Sometimes i regret, for doing what i did, for telling what i told, for listening to critics that i don't need to know, for watching scenes that i can live without seeing it, but i never regret for my choice. Cuz my heart speaks my choice.

I never regret that i was once with you, gsf.

I would much rather have regrets about not doing what people said, than regretting not doing what my heart led me to and wondering what life had been like if I'd just been myself.

Follow your heart, let the melody of heart flows. Even if the ending is not what you imagined, you'll still be smiling.

If you never have the guts to tell someone something, ask yourselves, would you wonder how things will be different 10 years from now?

Live. Love. Laugh

Semester 2

It's my tradition to restock junk food at the beginning of every new semester. So i went to Tesco on Saturday to stock up.

and i spent about RM150 on junk food. Call me a monster, but i just can't survive without junk food. Actually i bought much lessor, as many types were not on the rack. Wuang Ching opened my closet and got shock! haha

Tuesday come faster please~ I wanna go pasar malam to buy biscuit~ Those i bought last week is almost finish by Wuang Ching and me ad..

Went to DeeBeauty with sis before coming back yesterday, funny things happened again, but let's just not talk bout it. Cuz as it always been, it's not something that i am proud of ler. ~.~''' (yes, i still dont 'read' roads)

Open my room's door and get shock. The last time it looks this messy was when the kaki come to overnight after club. Haha.. That's what happens when two girls share a room, or should i

say when Wuang Ching and i share a room. xD

But after cleaning, it's my lovely room again. It took my almost two hours to clean it. Fuh~ tired la wey..

I wonder what big day last night was? People kept playing with firecrackers at dinner time just now. Argh~ Don't they know that it sounded much louder when you hear it from 15th floor? Grrr~

People said: life's like a roller coaster.

If it really do, then i think i must have on it for too long and cant feel my ass anymore. Or else why didn't i scream like everyone else when i see the result just now. Man~ i'm so numb for it. Haha

Woke up from bed today feeling kinda blur. I thought is the hangover, cuz i was like on a rocking boat, hard to maintain my balance. But, the problem is, i only drank one beer when i went out with Shinigami and Andy last night. -.-'''

I opened the door, but cant see anything. It's all dark for me even though it was 9.30am. -.-''' I closed my eyes and the next thing i know, i'm on the floor. For that moment i thought i was sleepwalking. LOL! Then a lump appeared on my head only i realize i wasn't dreaming.

I lost conscious for few ten seconds i guess? and damn, now i know the floor is hard. I was sitting there noob for 10minutes before i stand back up and go to shower. Then the pouring rain just came and i headed back to my lovely bed and sleep. Skipped my lecture. :P

Don was insisting me to go see a doctor when he called me afternoon.. Chill man~ it's not like i'm gonna die or whatever. *choi* I was actually looking for excuses to skip it. Urgh~ you know i hate doctor, I hate the clinic smell and i hate pills.

Not enough blood + hypo tension.

Doctor: Yes, what happened?

Don: She fainted when she woke up this morning, and she knocked her head on the floor.

Doctor: So you knocked your head on the floor and you fainted?hahaha!

Don+Cindy: -.-'''

Doctor: Oh~ That was a joke. Let me see. Open your mouth, arrrrrrr~~~~~~~

Cindy: :O

Doctor: Show your tongue

Cindy: :P

Doctor: Wa~ your tongue is so unique.. You carved your tongue? Do it hurt? But the pattern not very nice lar.

Cindy: i born with it. -.-'''

Doctor: oh~ Let's hear your chest and check the blood pressure

after checking

Doctor: if blood pressure got QC then you must have failed

Cindy: (whispering) Are you sure this is a legal, certified doctor?

Don: (whispering) I think so?

Doctor: Hmm.. Your heartbeat is lousy dancer lo.. the tempo is a bit skipped. Hypotension and not enough blood.

Don: Then what should she do?

Doctor: I think you know what i'll tell you, right? This is quite normal for underweight person. So, you can still have your life, just remember to eat the pills to increase blood supply.

Cindy: pills?! T-T

Then Don asked about my frequent vomit and reduced appetite problem. I'm not interested to write it out but you guys can just imagine the dialogue yourselves.

Still, he gave me pills. Urgh!!!

Thanks Don for caring but, now Helbo them are nagging me like a nanny. >.<'''

Compensation of my unlucky day: Red Box and Sushi King!

whee.. No pics for red box, i was too busy shouting, ehem, i mean singing. xD

Then, Vincent and Cherry joined us to go for Sushi King.

None of us ate more than 10 plates. Sigh~ gotta go again!

and they almost finished two of this

KASUT and her smoked salmon

Alan Oh's golden ball jumped out!

lickin' good?

I'm paying respect to Mr. Andy Ang for his heroic behavior! haha.

Today is a busy day. Met with lots of funny stuff and weird people. But i'm happy. :)

I'm amazed by how fast words can be carried from mouth to mouth.

I'm sorry if my words hurt, but i don't want to lie. Confession is the last thing i can do to make it right.

She Bang

She Bang

This song just came across my mind when i woke up 30 minutes ago. I wonder who wrote that song?

Bang myself on a pillar, well that's just an old story.

Then i bang myself on a door, or actually i should say a glass window which i thought it was a door at Red. People sitting right beside the glass watched me like i'm nuts or whatever.

Then i got home yesterday and i bang myself on my hostel door. Well at least now it's a REAL door. *laughs* What happened is actually when i turn the knob, i thought i opened it but i didn't. My body responded quicker than my mind and taadaa~ i bang the door that haven't been opened by myself.

Lastly, i just knock my right knee on the wall. Shit! the bruise just healing and now i make it bruise again. Why my room is so small!!!

Switch of topic~

As friends all knew it, i love muscle guy and i love muscle car. ;)

I found a perfect match for my giant baby when i went out for a walk with Hory at Gurney Drive. I saw it from far, she's so outstanding.

A white color Hummer, sweet~ she's so huge and yet so fine in line! The car number plate is a match with giant baby. My baby is B*L 888 this hot chick is P*D 888!

and i personally would like so much to meet the rider as the car sticks a 'P' like mine!! Hory said 'Ya la, maybe he would be a muscular guy that's working in office and happens to be just 21 years old.'

Please allow me to say,

Oh my f-ing god!

If he is, i'll propose to him and his car right on spot! I was just talking about Hummer with Tortoise few days ago and now it just appeared right in front of my eyes!

If the rider is a girl then i want to be her sisterhood! Though i'm not very good in girl stuff, but i'll try!!!!

argh~ crap a lot, vynn, you've got me infected! xD Enough craping, have to pack myself back sp d~

chao~

Shoot that down!

We have just been told by Mr. Lim Ang that we have created history for TARC on the day we took ABMC 4144 Decision Management paper.

The lowest passing rate on TARC history ever!

The estimation is only 6 people passed among all 64 students who took the paper. Similar compared to KL main campus.

Lim Ang said he is very grateful that we send him sucha prize before his retirement. Yes, also the lowest in his 35 years of teaching history.

Well, what can i say? Everyone keep RM80 and prepare for resit! Yea, at least you're not alone~ xD

LMAO

I was listening to Hitz.fm while sending my relatives to airport today.

A guy that do criminal, which mean, a theft, slipped into someone's house and steal money and jewelries. As the owner of the house was out, he was so relaxing. Before he go, he even facebook awhile using the pc of the owner. (nowaday is so good to be theft, samo got rest time on the halfway)

Then the theft just clean his butt and left. The owner came back and found out that his house has been theft! Then he checked through his pc and saw FACEBOOK? but the owner don't have an Facebook account and end up the police catch the stupid theft by tracing the Facebook.

LAUGH MY ASS OFF!

JJ said that it teaches us a lesson that's to concentrate while working!

but i say, Facebooker, see that's the consequences of being too addictive to Facebook ler~ haha! too bad i'm one of them xD

Changed a new song for my blog again

though i love the last few songs that i put

but this song that's in represent my attitude. :)

Dedicated to all son-of-the-bitch on Earth.

Have a pleasant day.

By the way, stay tuned for more and more upcoming post.

i'll face the unknown

i know i know i abandoned my bloggie again~ only updated a very short post last few days

so here's some update of my rainbow-like holidays.

It's gonna be long ;)

GPS

as we all know, i dont 'read' roads. The day when i wanna go hometown after exam, i lost myself twice in Penang and in SP. How great~ it cost me almost an hour turning here and there.

Blame the billboard and the traffic light please,

the billboard was too far and i cant see it clearly, at least not after i take a wrong turn. -.-'''

and where the hell do traffic light got 2 red lights and 2 green lights ON together? which one i suppose to look at??

LEO: nevermind la.. at least you make it to Gurney without wrong turns today

HORY: suan le la, if need to take some turns to get to gurney but not one straight road, sure she will lost herself in halfway as well de la~

LEO: so pathetic..

CINDY: T-T

but you guys know, i'm driving the Mount Eskine road ad lo~

i spinned the six floor gurney parking by myself ler~

now i know 2 ways to go pg bridge from tarc (thanks vincent^^)

i recognise the way to go airport and Queensbay

i know how to go BM Jusco and i bet you dunno, HoryHor~

yes, i was freak out when i get lost, that's why i know i should be better than scare that i cant go home.

Not counting on others, i depend on myself.

learner is me.

dont be so harsh on me ok~

Memory

Actually now i'm kinda glad that i have a lousy memory. Even i had a bad dream, though i wake up in fear but i cant remember what was the dream. When i have my breakfast, i totally forgot that i had a bad dream. *laughs*

the day after club, we went to gurney

Again as usual~ i forgot my stuff, this time, IC and driving license.

So i drove back to hostel from Island Plaza there to get my stuff

i went into my room and search like an FBI agent for that two cards but i cant find it. That's when my brain blinked suddenly.

I went back to my car and found my IC and driving license in my wallet.

SO DAMN!! I FORGOT THAT I PUT IT BACK IN MY WALLET WHEN WE GOT HOME AFTER CLUB

ish~

it's getting serious~

HEALTH

my digest system has been so poor on it's performance since last two weeks. It's getting a little bit better and worse off as well. Erm.. kinda hard to explain lar

Vomited 3 times the day when out with Leo, wasted my Nando's, aiksss. Maybe insomnia was one of the cause? i don't know. i havent really been sleeping the two days before outings.

Not sleeping trigger my old friend to come visit me as well, low blood pressure. (Cherry, we pity together T-T)

DIZZY!

the whole day, weak to keep myself walking, squatting down while Enson them was standing and discussing where to go and i slept when watching movie! THE FIRST TIME EVER! i was too blur to even remember who is starring in the movie other than Louis Koo. *laughs* I think i only watch 30 mins of the movie AT MOST. spend the rest of the time facing the toilet bowl and pouring food out from my mouth. But not much different la, they said the movie is not nice either.

But i still manage to drive myself home~ keng le~

Then i ate so few since then. Aikss.. looking at food that i love to eat, but i cant eat. I'm so easy to feel full. Mum cooked crab but i only very few, feel so sorry to myself, how come i feel full by eating just so little. Jealous watching my cousin and my sis eating it! Grrrr~

Last two day went to Jusco and ate a slice of black forest, vomited it out as well. I actually wonder, i didn't drink much water, how come i can puke out so much water, or should i say unknown liquid? like some kind of 'black forest juice'

And i ate Tenzaru soba (cold soba) and lots of sushi after vomit my black forest.. hehe.. compensate myself.. yummy yummy~

But i'm getting kinda ok i think, i gained weight!! 2kgs~ ^^

GIANT BABY

He is not so obedient recently.. hmm.. the alarm system spoiled the day i went out with Leo them. We've been standing there for like 10mins trying to fix it but no cure. It's still spoiled now and not yet been repaired.

the day after it, i take a ride with giant baby and the clutch is not responding!!!! Freak out again~ luckily the mechanic shop was near and i've got it repaired~ Thought i spoiled giant baby.. fuh~

but now giant baby is not with me anymore.. sigh~ sis going to start working soon so he's back with sis.. i'm gonna miss you~

FAMILY

Sis came back from England and bought lotz of souvenirs~ hehe~ Love 'em!

Her hair is so long that makes me kinda envy as my hair is sooo short compares to hers. Well, not thinking of having long hair still, just sometimes i miss that i can tie my hair all up in a pony tail.

Spend lots of time with my relatives this holiday and i glad i did. They are all so cute! Laughters surrounding the house.

New members in the family including an apple green kancil for my mum~ Applause for the arrival of all new members!! Welcome to Lim's!

JERRY

aww... just a twinkle of an eye, you're 10 years old, which mean 70 in dog age. An old nanny

You become so lazy and like to lie down all the time.

Not active like when you were small, jump up and down all around.

You just love getting massage from us

waiting for us to come home and talk to you.

You dont understand us but you're the only one that love us the most.

You're naughty that you spoiled my laptop keypad

but you never lie

You're always the one who is awake no matter how late we got home.

Sitting by the door, you always watch with the sad puppy look when sis tries to eat

and you won

you're 10 now, mum and i started to fear that you will leave us one day.

Please promise, that you will not leave us.

We love you, just like you do.

FRIENDS

I LOVE THE ALL THE CRAZY TIME TOGETHER!

This holiday i know some new friends or being closer to some friends and i'm glad i did so. They are all so nice. Maiko, Khai Ling, Shinigami and Andy Ang~

i cherish all friends i know and everyone who know me well. Always have the best time when i'm around you guys. Laughters and sunshine.

Quoted from movie 'the perfect getaway'

Ain't no rainbow before rain

but for me

i've got rainbow cuz of friends

you guys make me laugh, from the bottom of my heart.

and thanks Andy Ang for asking me to die before he does. LMAO.. he mean it in a good way, very good way actually. ^^

Me

i'm still the smiling one

not much different

i change no one and no one dare to change me

and i'm so proud of myself that i bought a pair of jeans pants for only RM7 and a dress for RM25! All my walking is worthed! ^^

and just for your information, i knocked a pole and gift myself a very big bruise on my right knee. As Jason Tan you know lar.. normally i'm very happy when i get bruises one. But not this time, cause it was so embarrassing as people was watching me knocking the pole!

Shinigami was teasing me the whole night!! This is my gifted talent ok.. Dont envy lar, i know you just being jealous lar. I can teach you if you want.. Come come come.. dont shy~

still the perfectly imperfect Lim Cindy ;)

and i stil hate bell pepper forever